Blaugust Promptapalooza – Caught Up and Done!

While originally, there were plans for a whole bunch of posts and the Promptapalooza prompts on top of that, I ended up still not getting anything done ever since I arrived at my parents. Hence, here’s a catchup post.

First things first, why am I not getting anything done?

Honestly, I’d say that I’m missing my usual work atmosphere or rather the physical work station that I need to write blog posts. I’m currently at my parents’ and while I originally planned to blog in the morning when my parents are at work and when my siblings are at school – or rather when I’m all alone at home… I noticed that there was a huge dip in productivity for me. I’d end up starting to write a post but it wouldn’t feel right. The fact that my OCD would give me a headache because I don’t have my usual dual-screens, I don’t have my desk lamp, I don’t have my usual mug with my usual tea, and the fact that I have to write on a laptop in a completely different home in a completely different state of Germany… all of that combined resulted in me being super lazy and unproductive in terms of blogging. I tried creating a bunch of posts but none of them felt right. 

My “I’m so excited post!” ended up getting postponed over time… I had to finish my prompt about the username question since I signed up for that but I didn’t get any of the other prompts done, just yet, mainly since I’m not at my flat. I’ll effectively be able to write again when I’m at my home again… the plan was to leave for “home” on this Sunday but since my aunt is visiting this weekend and only leaving on Sunday, I’ll have to stay here until Monday… and even then, I don’t know if I’ll be away in the morning or if we’re leaving in the evening or whatever’s the plan. 

Why is it so important to me that I’m in my own four walls?

Frankly, I don’t know. I’m used to it. I can’t really stay here at my parents’ for too long since I start to get anxious. 

On that note, I don’t want to talk about this more personal and more emotional stuff on my blog anymore. I think I’ll move The Stray Sheep and all the personal crap over to my fresh and new blog, the Lich Diary, where I try to describe how I deal with my anxieties, insecurities, personal issues and how I’ll (try to) overcome them. If you’re into that, check that out, if not… it’s all fun and *games* over here, haha.

Note: This blog link up here… is gonna be mentioned a lot over the course of this blog post… so, uh… “see above” refers to that.

But seriously, I can’t really work or study here. The work environment is different here and I don’t feel at home at all. On top of that, there is construction work happening outside and I fucking hate the fact that it’s that loud. Even with in-ears and my music turned up to the max, I still hear that construction work and everything… super annoying.

So, what’s up with this post?

Essentially, I’ve seen plenty of people do the catch-up posts instead of actually writing the prompts. Instead of writing a whole post dedicated to only one prompt, they have their own normal posts at times and either pick out one or two prompts here and there that they write about… or they just write a sentence or two for each prompt but all of it in one post. 

And I’m not judging that. I would have done all the prompts in 31 posts… but life’s a bitch and not everything goes as planned, so here we are with a catch-up post. It’s a smart idea to have one like these in there. 

Effectively, I’ll write about most of the prompts in this one and try to link to the blogs that host them and I hope you enjoy that and I hope that it’s alright that I’m doing it like that. 

Prompt 11: Tell us about your physical creative space, and how it influences your “content creation”.

This is a prompt that I want to dedicate a whole post to but I didn’t do it yet since I can’t take pictures of my desk and everything since I’m not at home. So, I’ll do a post in the future about my PC specs, my set-up, my preferences, my desk and how I create certain posts and stuff instead… but for now, I’d like to say that I have two monitors set up on a desk that is way too small for two monitors… but it works so far. It’s a bit cramped I guess when I do stuff for uni and have a notepad on top of it and have to write on physical paper while doing research and stuff… but more often than not, I’m doing that kind of stuff at our library on campus and I resort to Open Office and Word on my PC when I’m at home. Between the two 1080p monitors is a desk lamp that usually provides light for me in the evening, for the night is dark and full of terrors. I tend to blog in the evenings, so naturally, that desk lamp is turned on. 

Next to my desk, I have another small and rather thin desk that I use for my tea setup where a small candle is providing heat to a pot of tea… and my teacup is on that separate table as well since I don’t want to spill liquids on my keyboard… again. Essentially, that’s the physical workspace that I use for creative stuff as well as normal work. I also stream there and game there and all of that, but again, I’ll talk about that in a different post.

Prompt 14: What are some of the things that get you excited in life?

I’d say video games, people and food. 

I follow a bunch of indie game devs on Twitter and get excited when I see their dev blog posts or WIP-screenshots and animations and whatever… and eventually, they release their full game, which is just glorious. The last game that I was super-hyped about was Children of Morta, I think, which I’ve been following for about three years… and before that, I was even more hyped about Risk of Rain 2 as I loved the first game ever since it came out… and since I followed Hopoo Games’ dev blog for ages ever since they announced wanting to create a sequel to Risk of Rain 1 but in 3D… and that sounded just rad. Over time, while following their dev blog, I also learnt about one of their other projects, Deadbolt… and it was just glorious when I first played it, though the review is still in the works.

Apart from that, meeting certain people can be quite exciting and actually doing something with close friends of yours can be really good. A close friend of mine and I haven’t seen each other since March, so we just met up like last year and were gazing at the night sky in hopes of seeing some shooting stars, the other day, while drinking a bit and talking about life, love, dreams and fear, and all of that stuff. On top of that, I also get excited when I go to live concerts, though that’s a bit rough right now in the midst of a pandemic. The last time I went to a live concert was a year ago when I went to a Crywank concert nearby and actually go to talk to Dan from Crywank and I even got an autograph, a photo with him and I was able to hug him. Was just awesome.

And well, food… I love trying new food and new recipes and when it tastes good afterwards, I’m happy about that… or when I tried that insect patty at a burger chain once… I was excited about it… and then it arrived and it was just awesome. 

Prompt 15: Tell us about a person or thing that has greatly influenced you.

I could go on about my grandfather and some of my neighbours and my uncle and all of that stuff but that’s something for my private blog (mentioned above). I guess a better answer for this prompt would be a lot of musicians that I followed over the years. Crywank, for instance, had a great influence on me when I got bullied. Arctic Monkeys, for instance, helped me a bunch after a few of my break-ups. Bonaparte were always a jammer for my longest train rides. Rainbow Kitten Surprise, Bakers Eddy, Amarante, The Amazons, Chris Christodoulou, Anberlin, Badflower, AnnenMayKantereit, Arcade Fire, and many other artists always provided me with great music while I was getting into bad headspaces or when I wasn’t doing too well and needed to cheer up or when I had good times. I feel like the music that I listened to, the games I played, the shows I watched, often lead to me feeling better when I was down.

And obviously, my best friend, her boyfriend, and my girlfriend are probably the biggest influences in my life. They are people that make me want to be a better person or rather a better human overall. I want to be the best possible “me” that I could be. 

Prompt 16: What is one of your earliest memories from one of your core fandoms?

As we’ve established earlier this month, I wouldn’t say that I’m part of any core fandoms… but at the same time, I did and still do watch a bunch of Anime and I did and still do read a lot of Manga so I guess that that’s one of my “core fandoms”. Hence, my earliest memory of that probably is when I watched InuYasha, Naruto, One Piece, and some other shows in FreeTV back in the day… although I only watched it sporadically and often wouldn’t watch all of the episodes due to me not catching all of them. My absolute favourite show back in the day was Detective Conan (I think, the show’s called “Case Closed” in English). 

When I first started sitting down and watching Anime, I remember really liking Mirai Nikki, Sword Art Online and Attack Titan… until I watched actual good shows… then I noticed that the “good shows” I knew weren’t actually all that good… and that was somewhat disappointing. And Season after Season the quality seemed to drop with some good shows occasionally showing up… but most of the newer shows seem to just be average at best, which is quite disappointing. Oh well.

Prompt 17: Write that one post that you always wanted to write but always postponed. Finally, do it!

No.

I have a few reviews lined up that I always wanted to finish writing but never could do. One of them is on Dungeon of the Endless… but whenever I start up the game, I notice that I want to rewrite my review… so I do that and go through the editing process… and then I play the game again for another run… only to notice that I’m not doing this game any justice with my review…. so I rewrite it and then play it again and then notice that I am still not doing it any justice. I just love that game too much. 

The other post that I’m always postponing is my anniversary post… it’s not done yet. It’s a month late. It will have to wait until I’m finished with it… once I’m at my flat again. 

I don’t like this prompt all that much. It wants me to finish a post on the spot when it’s not ready. It’s postponed for a reason and it will be postponed until I’m either back at my flat and happy with it… or until someone puts a gun to my head to make me finish that post (which is quite unlikely). 

Prompt 18: If you could meet any of the people that you look up to, who would it be? 

I’d love to meet my grandmother but she died before I was born. I’d love to meet one of my neighbours again but he died just last year. I already met Dan from Crywank, so I don’t need to do that necessarily… I guess, there are some bloggers like Mr Peril that I’d love to meet eventually but since the UK and Germany aren’t too far away, there is always a possibility for that. I’d also love to meet Naithin eventually although that’s gonna be a bit harder to accomplish since he’s a lot farther away… and well, there are a bunch of streamers from the US that I look up to that are quite far away like XilentFlex or Nickodimas or Tugboet… Oh well, maybe in the future. As long as they live on the same planet as me, it should be possible, right? 🙂 And of course, I look up to a lot of other streamers and bloggers and people in general, but I can’t possibly mention all of them, right? I mean, I could, but it would take a lot of time that I don’t have and I’d forget someone either way, right?

Prompt 19: Do you “finish” games/hobbies/projects and move on or do you come back to the same things again and again?

Oh, that’s a good question. There are games that I tend to 100% when the 100%-completion seems achievable… but when it seems too fiddly or too far away, I tend to just stray away and move on. Often, I end up drifting away from Open World titles, for instance, or I just finish the main storyline + some of the side quests before moving on to a different game when I’m bored of it. Similarly, some projects go on for ages with no end in sight (like this blog… hopefully…) but also short-lived projects that die before I know it (like my tomato plant, Felix… RIP).

Prompt 20: Tell us about some of your hobbies outside of the realm of your specific niche.

I love reading plays, poetry and tragedies. Apart from that, I sometimes do write short stories and poetry though I don’t publish them too often. As already mentioned, I enjoy good shows and also anime, cartoons and manga. I used to be part of our school’s Drama group and later our university’s Drama group but since I have to focus more on my university studies now, I don’t really have the time to go to all the rehearsals and stuff. Alas, I’m currently mostly doing the blog stuff, streaming, and occasionally reading or watching a show in my free time. My hobbies really stay in the realm of my niche currently since every other hobby of mine either required too much time (like my science fair projects or my Drama club rehearsals) or I just couldn’t make a lot of time for them (like poetry or reading in general). I also used to do some martial arts stuff for quite some time but also had to stop that due to a shift in priorities. I plan on maybe doing Jiu-Jitsu or potentially Muay Thai again, eventually, though that depends on my schedule again and the people there as well as the price, so uh… I’ll see.

Prompt 21: Tell us about your favourite antagonist(s) and explain why.

There are a lot of great antagonists out there but my absolute favourite is probably either Cave Johnson from Portal 2… or Virgil from Lightmatter… or Handsome Jack from Borderlands 2/Borderlands: The Pre-Sequel.

Cave Johnson and Virgil strike the same note of company bosses that tried to achieve greatness but failed to do so and ended up walking down a dark path (hehe)… and they’re crazy but not too crazy, which I really adore about them. Since Virgil is supposed to be a rival of Cave and since the games play in the same universe, I feel like it’s understandable that I like them both in the same way.

And Handsome Jack was one of the first villains I got to know in video games that had some actual depth to their character. I felt pity for him and somewhat understood him at some point and the reasoning as to why he’s… like that… he’s also a great character, very charismatic and… handsome… I may be lowkey crushing on him here and there but I really love his voice actor (who just randomly improvised about bretzels during some of the lines? Like… that’s awesome!). Honestly, this is easily my favourite. Fuck Virgil. Fuck Cave. They’ll share Spot 2. 

…and I’d like to name a female character here for inclusivity but I can’t exactly remember any other antagonists overall. GLaDOS, for instance, is a victim and not a villain. And more often than not villains tend to be male and not female. Recently, I played through Destroy All Humans! and the main antagonist, first off, didn’t feel like “the main antagonist”… and secondly, it wasn’t a good “main antagonist” that I’d call “my favourite”. This doesn’t have to do with sexism or anything like that… the reveal that Silhouette is female just didn’t have anything to do with the game and didn’t seem surprising or whatever… it was just “eh”. I guess I can write a whole post on whether or not gender matters when it comes to antagonists or protagonists, so look out for that.

Prompt 22: What piece of content would you most like to have a sequel or reboot?

While I certainly feel like a lot of games deserve a second chance to do stuff better… I don’t think it’s necessary to rewrite them or to remake them. Remakes and Remasters usually lure you in for the sake of nostalgia, like the recent “Destroy All Humans!” remake, and then they end up disappointing you after you cannot refund them anymore. Two hours in, I still had fun and enjoyed myself with it… Three hours in, I got frustrated occasionally… After 11 hours I was done with the game, despite having paid 30€ for it when it effectively offered me 15-20€ worth of content… at most… I shouldn’t have bought it at full price (or rather, I shouldn’t have gotten excited and pre-ordered it). Lesson learned, I’ll write a bad review on it because it’s absolutely not worth the full price and it’s super frustrating and has a bunch of issues that they didn’t fix. 

I feel like a remaster or a remake should introduce at least some improvement to its gameplay systems, some quality of life changes, some additional content without taking away from its original gameplay formula. Most of the games I love and play regularly, don’t really need a remade or remastered version, because they’re good games. I’m excited for the new Left 4 Dead 2 Update that is coming out soon… but I doubt that it’s in line with the prompt if I go on and rant about bad remakes and bad design choices and bad purchases on my end. I’ll dedicate a whole post to this topic, eventually.

Prompt 23: What is your greatest fear, and how does it impact the type of content you create or consume?

I have a lot of fears that I’ll eventually cover on my personal blog (again, see above). The only fears that kind of effect my “content” are probably the fear of missing out, the fear of not fitting in, and the fear of not standing out. While that may be contradictory, I don’t want to be “just another gaming blog” or “just another review blog” or “just another indie blog” as that would result in me being or becoming boring. While I blog because it’s fun, I obviously also want to grow, so that my reviews get read and so that people get to play some true indie gems. But I also don’t want to stand out too much with an opinion that people don’t like, as that could get me “cancelled”. I don’t really believe that “cancel culture” is a thing… but I also am scared about it… Again, see above. I’ll write more about that on the other blog. And as far as FOMO goes, I don’t want to miss out on some lovely interactions with other bloggers, so I try to read their posts and I try to post about certain topics that are popular, at times, again for the sake of growth. 

But while those fears exist, I’m not exactly anxious about a lot of the things there. I tend to ignore them and do my own thing… even if that’s not always the easiest thing, I know that it’s the best thing to do for me and my health. 

Prompt 24 was my prompt. So, I already uploaded that.

Looki looki at my blog-gi. 

Prompt 25: How did you get started in content creation?

There used to be a blog called peteback (can’t link it since it doesn’t exist anymore) that did essentially a similar thing to me here… review games and shows and write about their hobbies and I really liked that. And then I started my own blog. 

Prompt 26: With the pandemic, we are going through an unprecedented time. In what ways has this shared global event impacted your content creation?

Well, when everything just started, I ended up blogging as per usual. I already was done with all of my exams, so I had more free time and ended up participating in Blapril while also publishing 45 posts in total during that time! While I was streaming three times a week before that, I ended up changing my schedule a bit to have four streams per week since people are now at home and since those people needed a place to hang out at or rather a place to entertain themselves at. The pandemic hasn’t ended yet and Germany is on its way to a second lockdown (Covidiots, hooray!), so I may actually stick to the four-stream-schedule for quite some time… and I honestly, really like it. 

With less social interactions and with me not going out as much, though, I ended up feeling less productive and I even got into this weird headspace that a lot of people were talking about already. More often than not, I’d end up posting less or less frequently… and eventually, Uni@Home started and I had my online classes which kept me busy so that lead to fewer posts.

But then I picked it up again and once I’m back home, I’ll be able to post more frequently again. 

In the end, while the pandemic is bad for a lot of people… it ended up benefitting the gaming industry as more people at home meant more people to play games and more profits from games that people at home want to play (the maths add up!) – alas, content creators also benefitted from this as there were more people watching streams or reading blog posts or doing all of that… but due to me not feeling too well at times, my stream quality ended up dropping a bit again, so that resulted in a drop in views and overall, fewer people watching. 

Again, once I’m back home again, I’ll work on that. I’ve got a blog post lined up for that as well for the Live in Purple category (name to change) and I’m looking forward to writing about issues I’ve faced while streaming and my advice for people that are starting out on Twitch or that are new to all of this. Again, more posts to come and more stuff in the drafts and, ugh, I’m sitting at 54 drafts, right now, despite this post going out soon…

Prompt 27: What piece/s of technology would you have the hardest time living without?

This is a relatively easy prompt to answer. My mobile phone, my computer and my internet router. 

I can’t stay in touch with the world and what’s going on without access to the internet… and for access to the internet, I need either my mobile phone or my PC… and obviously, I need my internet access/router. When I’m offline, I get to read more books but overall, I end up struggling due to FOMO… and while books are great and all of that, I love playing games and watching shows and watching YouTube videos, so that kind of ended up being a big part of my free time activities. 

Prompt 28: What are some of the things that you wish you knew before you started creating content?

Honestly, I don’t think there are many things that I would have wanted to know beforehand… Well, the existence of Grammarly (#notsponsored). I would have checked my grammar and spelling and all of that in my first few posts… and I’ll fix that soon… if I remember.

Prompt 29: What are you looking forward to the most over the course of the next year?

Uh, the vaccines for the Rona. When it’s happening, I’ll be able to visit my grandparents without getting anxious about potentially killing them with my hugs.

Prompt 30: Tell us about some community that you are a part of and why it interests you or how it impacts you?

Uh,… the Blaugust community? I don’t know. I’m not a part of many communities and the ones that I am a part of usually don’t have the sense of community that the Blaugust community has. I actually feel like I’m a part of something when I talk to other Blaugustans and when I participate in the events and stuff. I’d love to play some games with more people there but timezones and schedules and all of that is hard to get around… but we’ll manage it somehow. 

And yeah, when I need help or advice, I’m able to rely on others there. Can highly recommend the Blaugust community. 100% not biased!

Prompt 31: What is your favourite thing to do in order to relax?

Video games… okay, that’s kind of obvious. 

Let’s go with music then. I sometimes have some very busy and very bad days full of shitty people (again, coming soon on the other blog, see above) and when I get home, I just fall into my bed and lay down for a while. Then I take a shower, pop a can of Dr Pepper, put in my ear-plugs and enjoy my music for a bit while sitting on the balcony… In the winter it’s the same thing but inside and while browsing blogs or whatever. 

Some of my favourite playlists:

And yeah, that’s essentially all of the Blaugust Promptapalooza prompts done in one day. I know I’m a bit early but I wanted to have all of them done by the end of the month and Monday is gonna be hectic, so I don’t know if I’ll be able to post them by then. Apart from that, I haven’t posted in quite some time, so I wanted to give out a sign of life before continuing with the usual frequency next month. 🙂 

Hope you liked this one. 

Cheers!

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

Blaugust Prompt #13 – 5 Facts

Jen from Bookofjen has a prompt for us: 

Tell us five things about yourself!

Thanks for the prompt, Jen! Check her blog out! The next one in line is Heather from Geeking By! Check her blog out as well! 🙂

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

Alas, the five-fact-list is starting now… This one should be not too depressing!

Fact 1: I’m getting better at cooking.

This should be no surprise since I’ve lived alone for nearly two years now (The 3rd of September marks the beginning of the third year!) but I actually am getting better at that cooking business.

Over time, I’m really good at knowing what spices and what things are missing in dishes and I’m very good at spicing up veggies, for instance. I don’t have too many mishaps anymore with too much salt or too much pepper and am also getting better at cooking meat through to certain points.

That’s something that I’ve been excited about lately. After all, food is important but it should also taste good and since I love cooking for other people, including friends and my girlfriend, I want them to enjoy their food as well. 

The things I work on right now is getting faster and more confident with the knives and actually being able to create dishes that look good. 

The latter is somewhat of a bad habit of mine where I don’t care about the look of the food if it’s food for “only” me. I’ll eat it regardless of how it looks… but I wouldn’t want to take a dump on other people’s plates and serve it to them, so I’m trying to get better at actually making it look good. For that, I tend to take a look at different veggies and their colours and stuff to essentially balance out the colour palette. Before cooking them, I tend to boil them for a bit before putting them into cold water… “to blanch” veggies is very good to stop them from cooking too much and losing their colour, which is important in the case of sweet potatoes who turn brown instead of orange… or beans that lose a lot of their green. You can also peel off tomato skins using that method.

Hence, I go through a bit more of an effort to make the actual dish look good. Forming the rice is also really nice… experimenting with the look and presentation of the sauce on the plate… that kinda stuff. 

The former thing about knives is a bit of a fear of mine. Before I started my blog, I accidentally stabbed myself with a knife into the left hand. So, now, I tend to be super scared of using knives since I don’t want to cause another red wedding in my flat, worrying everyone and passing out on the floor and stuff. 

To get better at knife-work, I try to challenge myself while cutting up veggies and to try and filet meat easier while also trying out different techniques… overall, it’s a process and I’m excited about getting better at it.

Fact 2: I hate tier lists.

While maybe surprising, I hate tier lists like this one. I don’t enjoy writing about something without connecting different dots in some way together. Lists don’t have anything to do with knife-work or food. Shopping lists are handy but as a post? I’d hate that! So, let’s try and get this over with…

Maybe, it’s a bit of an ego-issue but I tend to devalue posts like “top 20 games budgets” that essentially represent a five-minute Google search… Obviously, these posts also take work… obviously, they are also a time investment for the author. But I just don’t like them. My list right now already took more time to write than their post over there – and yet, it’s content produced for the masses. Stuff, that people enjoy and like. 

I hate it. I devalue it and I doubt that’s a bad thing either. It’s just opinion that I don’t rate posts about facts or lists or whatever highly.

I’ll hate this post, even if it probably does a lot better than my other posts. 

Fact 3: I enjoy anime.

This one is probably no surprise after the manga review that I did on Girl By The Sea or after talking about Necrobarista and Milky Way Prince. 

Generally, I wouldn’t consider myself a “fan” as the fandom consists of weebs and self-proclaimed “otakus” that constantly use at least one Japanese word per sentence… and I also don’t like a lot of the gatekeeping and hate that is going on in the fandom… and the sexism, bigotry and double standards… and the harassment of cosplayers… and the number of people thirsting over girls while obviously being toxic assholes… yeah, I don’t want to be part of that community.

But at the same, I guess I’m a “fan” since I enjoy a fair amount of anime and watched a fair amount myself so far and since I still actively watch shows whose episodes come out every week… it’s just that I don’t enjoy all of the fandom-aspects of it. I talked about it for a bit in the fandom-post a while back… But there are a lot of things that I’ve left uncommented…

Fact 4: My favourite numbers are 17 and 19.

Honestly, I don’t know why people would choose any other numbers… 19 is my absolute favourite number, so I had the habit of using it a lot when I created exercises for students of mine… but sometimes, when they were about to notice, I’d use (the inferior… but also really pretty) 17 to confuse them. They are both prime numbers as well, which is quite cool! 

A past professor of mine really liked 15 and 28. What a weirdo. 

And a friend of mine really liked 5/7, though I can understand that he liked that number a lot… 

…I really hope that I meet normal friends when I study English studies. I really hope that we can talk about normal stuff… my math friends were weird and they made me even weirder. 

Fact 5: I used to do Kendo, Iaido, Iodo and Muay Thai.

Okay, the latter was something that I initially wanted to do… but I ended up not being able to since I moved away shortly afterwards… but I did train Kendo (The Way of the Sword), Iaido (The Way of the Drawing of the Sword), and Iodo (The Way of the Stick) for a bit more than a year. 

It was a lot of fun and helped me with a lot of issues from my posture to my self-discipline to anger-management, I guess. I really enjoyed it when I passed one of the exams, the 6th Kyu (it’s the first thing you do and it goes down to the 1st Kyu and then you get the 1st Dan, all the way up to the 6th – at least in Germany).

Quite often, we’d travel somewhere as well to learn more about other schools and techniques and we’d also have joint exercises with other schools and dojos. Once, we had a workshop of sorts with other dojos of other martial arts and we were able to experience some more Iaido taught to us by a 4th Dan who passed the exam for the 5th in Japan (!) but didn’t accept it since he felt that he didn’t deserve it yet. I even got to learn a bit of Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu and we did some exercises on Kung Fu, or specifically the Pak Sao techniques. 

Sadly, it didn’t work out with that since I had to work, I had my girlfriend at the time, school stuff, the training, and lots more going on. In the end, I had to make the right call and prioritize something… 

When I had less work, I wanted to train something again, and Muay Thai seemed like a cool thing that I could enjoy, mainly since my ex-girlfriend at the time talked a lot about it. My long legs were quite optimal for it since I had the necessary speed and height to kick people’s head without them reaching me but sadly, I couldn’t practice it too much… Once the “Rona” stops, I may actually pick it up again and start over. I would have loved to do Iaido or Iodo again but I don’t have my old equip anymore…

Cheers!

Blaugust Prompt #12 – Dwell in the past

Blaugust Prompt 11 about my physical creative workspace is… in the works… but I want to post pictures that I can’t get right now… I’m not there after all. Hence, we’re writing about Prompt 12 instead, for now, which is hosted by SDWeasel over at USS! The next post in line is by Jen over here. Check her out. (Usually, this would be at the end, but in this case, that’s not possible at all with how the post is set up and written.)

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

“What’s something that you’ve lost along the way… that you’d like to get back?”

And well, the short answer to that would be my childhood and the relationships I had with my family. 

I often dwell in the past and get nostalgic but essentially there used to be easier times. I’m the oldest brother and have three younger siblings. When we were younger we would go for a walk into the mountains nearby and I would make up games and fantasy stories about us hunting monsters or saving the world or other adventures. Even my sister (at the time, more of a tomboy, tbh) would come with me and my brothers to play and have fun and it was a lot simpler at the time.

One time, we met some tourists who got hopelessly lost. We guided them to “the old castle ruin” and I told them a bit about the city’s history since I’m a crack for my hometown’s past… and in the end, they gave us 2€ each, so we got 2 ice cream balls each! – At the time, that was insane for us.

My sister is three years younger than me and my brothers (twins btw) are four years younger than me. As the oldest brother, I was supposed to help them out with school stuff since I at the time knew German better than my parents. They’d let me help them and I was actually helpful to them back then. 

It was a simpler time and it all changed when we got our first computer. 

Long story short, video games changed my life. While I used it as a much-needed escape, it drove my siblings and me further away from each other. We ended up drifting apart and over time, especially with me moving out two years ago, they don’t really want to talk to me too much and even with me visiting for a week, they don’t really desire to spend too much time with me.

Essentially, I’ve lost the close relationship that I had to my siblings and I’d love to have that again. I’d love to chat with them. I’d love to play with them and hang out and all of that. My girlfriend and her sister are very close, so I somewhat envy her because of that. I really hope that it gets better eventually and I definitely need to work on my relationship to my family members but at the same time, they also have to make some steps to improve it.

As time goes on, they’ll understand how important these things are. They’ll also try their best to get closer to me, hopefully.

I’m here for four days already and it’s making me anxious right now. My father has different appointments to tend to due to his health issues. My mother has to work all the time. My sister is either at her friends’ place or at work. My brothers have school or are spending time with their friends. Hence, I’m left here as if nothing changed. I don’t really get to spend too much time with them and that’s one of the things that are making me anxious right now.

Luckily, I know that everything will turn out for the better eventually. And I also have my blog to turn to and write about things, though I admittedly changed this post now in hindsight, as I don’t think that it’s too fitting to talk about my personal issues too much on a blog like this.

It’s a small relief to be able to write about things. It’s a big relief that I’ll be in my own four walls in just a few more days. It’s an even bigger relief that I’ll be able to talk about all of this when I’ve got my first ever therapy session.

I can’t wait for all of this.

Blaugust Prompt #24 – The username question

Blaugust is here! But what’s this? This isn’t the usual Blaugust? It’s a special Promptapalooza with a prompt hosted by me! Welcome in! If you have no clue about all of this… then check out the two links in the box below the post… and if you’re here from Beej or other bloggers, welcome in! Nice to meet you! Grab some tea, soda, coffee, or your beverage of choice and let’s have a cosy time today! I hope you’ll enjoy this post of mine. 🙂

So, let’s see… I’m currently at my parents’ and enjoying my time off… and in the evenings before giving in to slumber, I try to read my way through some of these awesome blogs here while thinking about my own prompts… and I still need to catch up to the last ten or so prompts… So those prompts will come out soon and then I’ll change the date in hindsight… but I’ll have to host this one, so this one is coming out before all of the other prompts. I’m sorry for the confusion that that may cause you. I hope it’s somewhat understandable that I may be dead… but I still am human.

Before I explain that last sentence and today’s prompt, I’d like to give a shoutout to Beej from Geek to Geek Media! They hosted a very well-written and amazing post yesterday about their fears and how it affects their content production and consumption. Their very real fears are very similar to some of mine and hence, I can really recommend checking that post out! If you’ve read it already, do it again! Beej also was super adorable at the end with their shoutout to me… really made my day. Thanks a lot for that!

Now… what’s today’s prompt? 

“How did you get the name that you regularly go by online, and what if anything does it mean?”

Tadaa! A very cool prompt! Really like this one! Hope you enjoy it!

As far as me goes… it’s somewhat tied to my character over here that I mentioned in my mascot-post! Uh, it’s a bit of a silly story and I think I mentioned it somewhere before in some post… but essentially, I’m from Germany and I love mages and magic and wizards and that kinda stuff in games and movies and other media. The German word for “mage” is “Magier” but when I typed that word into the character-name-box of some game at the age of three or four… only four letters were allowed. Hence, I went with Magi without knowing why exactly it didn’t allow the “-er”. I was young at the time. I knew the word from some show and just remembered what these letters looked like and all of that… and in the end, my name was “Magi” at the time. 

Later on, I had these toys from all kinds of sets… there were toy soldiers, different figurines, a barn set and cars and pirates and animals and dinosaurs and whatever… I jumbled up everything much to my siblings’ liking who all would believe the stories I told them about all of the different characters and adventures and stuff… I don’t know… back then, I really enjoyed doing that and my siblings and I were a lot closer. Anyways, there was this black mouse with red eyes that I had there and I essentially claimed that mouse figure as my character “Magimos”. I combined “Magi” with the very “cool”-sounding suffix “-mos” because I liked that name… I imagined it to be some sort of dark undead mage who has been trapped in that body while still being incredibly evil and dangerous.

Eventually, I moved on from toys and – as we had our first ever PC – I started playing online video games… like Dark Orbit and Minecraft. I even played stuff like NeoPets or social games on Facebook… “Magimos” always was my username of choice and for the longest part, it even followed me to Spotify, League of Legends and Twitter, until I eventually started to not feel attached to the name anymore. The “mos”-part really bothered me all the time and most people would call me “Magi” anyway… so, whenever possible, I would end up using Magi… which was essentially never. Magi is quite the popular name, it seems, and hence “Magi” is taken… more often than not. Alas, I used that name on Twitch and Minecraft and League of Legends (after I had enough BE for the name change) and eventually rebranded my whole character to that persona of the lich/necromancer “Magi”.

I always liked the idea of a necromancer or summoner type. Summoning minions to fight by your side in your stead is really cool after all. And as far as the “lich” or “undead” part goes: I quite often enjoy playing the “bad guy” more than the actual heroes in games. Games that leave you the option to wreak havoc and sacrifice humans and stuff are lovely. I really enjoy those. 

That mouse character in the past eventually got freed and took the form of a recoloured black mage from FF1 that was supposed to be a necromancer instead. The darkness that is enveloping the face, the pale hands, and the red eyes are something that I use in most of my character-iterations. My character has that as a feature and I really like how it turned out in the end.

Now, while “MagiWasTaken” is quite cool for a name… I also go for some other names every now and then. In some MMOs, the male character model sucks and I create a female one since they’re cuter… “Magimos” never worked for those and “MagiWasTaken” is to username-ish for those… so I ended up using “Lizz Winterfield” in BDO and GW2. It’s another name that I use whenever I see it fitting. It’s my name on Spotify… I have a Facebook account with that name (unless I deactivated it already?)… I use that in Minecraft since I like that one a lot as well. Overall, “MagiWasTaken” and “Lizz_Winterfield” are my go-to-names. “Lizz” is a lovely name after all while “Winterfield” is the most human-sounding name I know. 

Where are your usernames from? What did you use in the past? How did your name evolve over time if at all? Why do you stick to it? 

I personally feel like I can identify with this mage character quite often in games when I use a name like “MagiWasTaken” or “Magi”. Meanwhile “Lizz Winterfield” really works for me when I play female characters and when I’m trying to roleplay or play a different class instead of my usual stuff.

That was it for today’s post. Hope you enjoyed this one. The next post in line is by Joar from WoW Alt Addiction! Join them and their prompt for more blogging-awesomeness! I can really recommend checking them out and again, check out all the other bloggers who have participated so far and are participating in the next few days. 🙂

Cheers!

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

Blaugust Prompt #10 – The process behind my blog posts

Do I have specific routines for the process of creating a blog post? Are there differences between different types of posts? Do I only write posts on my PC? Do I only write at certain given times? Do I have a schedule for recurring topics? Well, this question and everything around the process of creating a blog post, in today’s Blaugust Prompt, hosted by Pae from NerdyBookahs

TL;DR: Yes, Yes, PC/Laptop, Yes, No, and more information!

The actual prompt is called: “What’s your process when creating a blog post?”

Now, I’d have to clarify that the process is different for every type of post. I tend to do Stray Sheep and other entries that are more wordy, ranty or just rambly in one sitting and edit them later. I usually sit down with a cup of tea or a mug of coffee, based on the time, and start writing… and when I’m done, my coffee is either empty or has gone cold, which is always a bummer. 

Speaking of “based on the time”, I tend to either write in the evenings or the mornings. During the day, I have to work on real-life stuff and study and do all of that, so I end up only having time to write when I get up and drink my coffee or when I am done with everything in the evening if there’s enough time before the stream. 

As far as to “where”, I tend to do it at my desk using my PC. Based on what I do, I can just use the second screen for music or research or whatever, while writing on the screen in front of me. When I didn’t have the PC yet, I would sit down on my bed and write on my laptop. I did try to edit a post on my phone once… but it’s incredibly hard to pull off and I suck at typing on my phone, even as a GenZ/Zoomer, “lol”. Alas, I usually go for the PC and just work on there. It’s the cosiest and most efficient, I’d say. I don’t have to tab in and out as much and I can type rather fast.

I have to rely on my laptop whenever I’m not at home or at my desk. I used to sometimes work on blog stuff at University in between breaks when I had too little time to work on university stuff and when I had just enough time to edit a picture and put it into a blog post or something like that. Over time, I ended up not doing that anymore, though, since my laptop has become slow and loud… and it can’t be helped since it’s already six years old but it still works when I’m at my parents and the volume of it doesn’t bother me there either, unlike in class. 

As far as schedules go: I don’t usually go for a schedule. I try to get posts out as soon as possible while not posting twice or even three times a day. Spacing out posts is important. While not my primary concern, I also want my posts to get read: Hence, I try to have a few days between reviews, so that some of the reviews can gain traction through Twitter, Discord, and the WordPress reader. At the same time, though, posts can also gain views when you post others and when people click off from them to others, so I try to space them out a bit but not too much. In the end, it’s a bit of a struggle between posting daily and potentially burning out but staying consistent enough for google to pick you up… and just posting every few days and potentially risk losing discoverability. 

I did once try to post a review every week with an additional post per week… but it ended up burning me out a bit and I posted fewer reviews for a while. Essentially Stray Sheep can be posted asap while reviews take a bit of work and cannot be mass-produced by me, at least with my standards and the value I put into them. The new Lookout Post also takes a bit of time to prepare as I want to get facts right or talk about certain games. The Gaming Journal posts also are more like gaming-related Stray Sheep that get posted once done.

Now, while other posts usually end up just being a write-up of sorts, reviews take a bit of work for me personally. Based on the game, I try to see every feature and every nook and cranny of it. Sometimes, you get the bigger picture already after a few minutes to hours, like in Fall Guys, but in other cases, it tends to take more than just hours. I’m working on a review of Outer Wilds right now and while it is written up, I fear that I’m spoiling too much. To find out whether or not I liked it, I had to complete the story, which didn’t take too long… Just 24 hours in total, according to steam. After that, I wrote up a post that is nearly 4000 words long (3870 words to be exact) and now I have to cut out words so that it ends up being shorter and less spoilery.

I essentially play games that I want to review, take screenshots wherever I can, and then take notes and write a post. 

Now, usually, posts can be as long as needed but reviews are a bit iffy in that regard, too. Reviews are supposed to give you insights on a game and whether or not you should buy or (rather) play it. Nowadays, people tend to not have the time to read through a post that requires you approximately 30 minutes to read through. Instead, people end up reading posts more that are shorter and more compact with more compressed information and essentially a TLDR at the beginning or even a summary that you can skip to when you’re in a hurry. 

But I don’t want to do that. I don’t want people to skip over my post. If they want to, they surely can do that, but I don’t want to enable them to exactly skip through everything, so I end up posting reviews that are long enough for me to see them as actual posts… but short enough so that people can finish them in a bus ride or in between. Hence, my posts are about 1000 to 1300 words long and get trimmed down to that. 1100 words are about 3-4 minutes of read-time, according to Grammarly and other sources. This varies based on the skill of the reader and the words of choice but generally, they are “long” but not “too long”. 

Back to my post on Outer Wilds: According to this post here, it would take a slow reader about half an hour to get through my review in its current state. Even a faster reader like me would need nearly 10 minutes for it, which could be considered too long already. So, I have to cut it down to about 1000 words or 1300 at max… or even a bit more, but not too much.

The other reason as to why I have to cut it down is spoilers. Outer Wilds is heavily based on exploration. Every screenshot, every information, every reference, every joke, every single word can ruin the experience. The same goes for my posts on Necrobarista or Milky Way Prince – The Vampire Star. Being visual novels, their story is really important for the experience of the player. Every single word that I could write, could be a word too much. Hence, I have to see what I can do about that, how I play around it, how much I can say and what I would consider a spoiler… or what information would be a key-information for me. In Outer Wilds, for instance, the information, that [no spoilers], was crucial to my understanding. Hence, that information would ruin everything about the game for the reader. Duh.

Hence, I need to get rid of all the information that people don’t need to know before they play the game. The screenshots mostly are either pretty or add to my information but never show any bosses from late-game or whatever… The information is always based on the first few hours of my experience while the issues are things that I encountered over the course of my playthrough. 

After I’m done writing the review, I then go and research some facts about the game like the Developer, Publisher, Release Date, Platforms, Genres and put them into a small verse-block to essentially give people a quick look into what the game is about and whether or not the game is something they might be interested in. I also look for a featured image since that’s going to be displayed on top of the post and since that one will be in the link text and all of that. 

At last, after all of that, I tend to go back to the beginning and write a pitch of sorts. Something creative that basically invites people to come to the post. In my review for Milky Way Prince: The Vampire Star, I ended up talking about idealization and intimacy by first alluding to the very first time I met my current girlfriend and the somewhat cringy but also very hopelessly romantic memory I had of that. That anecdote then relates to topics in the game and I refer to the summary of the story without telling too much about it. Afterwards, I welcome the reader to another review and head into it. 

That works quite often. 

Sometimes, I need to find other words for it though… I can’t just start every review with “Today’s Indietail is about [game name], a [genres] title” – that would make every review generic and less personal. Instead, I’d love to write a short paragraph or two about something related to it. In my review on Ayre, I asked questions about freedom and flying… and while not that creative, I couldn’t really come up with anything else, so I just went for that. Still better than nothing!

So, to sum it all up: I do work at certain times, I do have certain routines, I prefer my computer as a workspace, and usually I have some coffee or tea ready for the process of writing. Reviews take a lot of work and effort since I am considering these things and a lot more… and I tend to write posts up and then later worry about editing, layout, and the initial pitch… in that order! 

Thanks for reading this post so far! You’re a champ!

This prompt was hosted by Pae, so check her post out if you haven’t yet. The next post in line is by Krikket, so check her out as well! 

Cheers!

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

Blaugust Prompt #8.5 – Characters that tell something about me

Just yesterday, we talked about mascots and our favourite protagonists. The latter was the prompt that Bel gave to Tessa, though she then modified it.

Her slightly modified prompt was “Share characters that tell us something about you!”

But I don’t think that this prompt is too different from my previous choices. At first, I wanted to go for the unmodified prompt by Bel and then post a follow-up later on the prompt by Tessa since my taste in books is usually somewhat depressing. I love tragedies and horror stories and some other plays and anthologies. Hence if I were to talk about book characters that “tell something about me”, I’d end up not really knowing who to talk about.

One of the characters that I could mention would be Eeyore, the donkey from A.A. Milne’s “Winnie-the-Pooh”. Now, I love this book to bits. It’s one of the less gloomy books I own, probably since it’s written for children… but at the same time, all the characters have mental health issues and some of the stories are really philosophical and… it’s way too much fun to talk about some of the stuff in there while, uh… high.

Eeyore, for anyone who doesn’t know, is a rather melancholic and pessimistic donkey – and I always kind of liked him. I often get listless and don’t want to move or be productive or leave the house and when I have those pessimistic, lazy, and depressed phases, I identify quite heavily with Eeyore, I guess.

Franz Kafka’s “Die Verwandlung” strikes a similar note with a character called “Gregor Samsa” who suddenly turned into a giant bug. He has become listless and can’t control himself. He’s treated as a monster by his family members and employers while still being expected to work like a proper human being…

Another character that I really like that may tell something about me would be Ernest/Jack (haha…) from Oscar Wilde’s “The Importance of Being Ernest”. It’s one of my favourite comedies and honestly, a very well-written socio-critical play. Jack is the legal guardian of Cecily but doesn’t really want to take care of her so he made up this persona of a younger, adventurous, and troublesome brother called Ernest who lives in London. Hence, he often travels there to take care of him when he’s in jail or needs help in other regards. Once he’s in London, he then pretends to be Ernest himself, living a lazy life with his friend, Algernon. There is also a lot of other stuff happening and a lot of Bunburyism going on, making the story somewhat ridiculous and confusing at the same time while also rather funny and amusing but that’s not the point of this post.

Jack aka Ernest is essentially playing two roles here. While in London, he’s lazy and playful, adventurous and always up to no good. While he’s in the country, he’s got to take care of Cecily and other duties. I kind of see myself in there with not being able to be “me” when I want to be “me”. Wherever I go, certain expectations of me aren’t necessarily in line with what I stand for or what I think.

And then there’s also the issue of my mere identity, I guess. Having a migration background, I always was “the foreigner” in my hometown. Having been born and raised in Germany, however, I’m also “the foreigner” when visiting my distant relatives. In both of these sides of the world, I’m expected to behave certain ways and when I don’t do that, people tend to get disappointed.

My distant relatives think of Germans – and ultimately of me – as people that are very rich and generous while also polite, strict and boring. If I don’t pay for their meals or whatever, I’m “just like the Germans” – who of course are also cheapskates. If I want people to call before coming to visit, I’m “just like the Germans”. When I don’t want to go out every day, I get told to “not be like the Germans”.

And in my hometown, some of the people that I talked to every day had some issues as well where they would talk of “foreigners” like me as barbaric and lazy people that steal their jobs, earn more than them, and who never work. They also never learn the language, are very bad at school and don’t put any effort into anything they do. When they noticed that I was good at school, worked my ass off and that I was better at German than most Germans, they called me “the exception”, which is not better at all. Suddenly, I was not German but also not one “of my own people”. When stuff didn’t go as planned with me, I was “just like the others”. When it was of use for them, I’d get picked by teachers as “a great example for successful integration” even when the same teachers would scream at me in their office for “not integrating myself” whenever I got bullied by others and whenever they started fights.

Value-wise, I’d also stand on two horses with being quite liberal and open and accepting of anyone while my parents and my distant relatives aren’t accepting of gay people or share other values like that. Racism is a thing all over the world – and even if it’s understandable to hold a grudge against your “enemy” that killed so many of your family members, I never was a fan of hating Serbian people for what some of them did 21 years ago. Showing weakness and emotions as a man is considered stupid and gay and whatever. Equality is not that advanced either. I hate it.

The fact that I’m in love with someone who’s not Albanian, is very controversial. That’s also one of the many reasons why I don’t really have too much contact with a lot of my relatives. My older cousin who used to be really close to me turned into a garbage human being who’s greedy, horny and just toxic. Similarly, an uncle of mine is always being childish while oozing with toxic masculinity. I just can’t stand it.

Alas, Ernest Jack from the Importance of Being Ernest is potentially the most fitting character to tell something about me. He’s playing different roles, just like I have to pretend that I like my distant relatives and just like I behave differently in different circles. Jack moves to London to escape this dreary existence in the country to live his life in London. On the same note, I moved away from that 6k population town to this 350k city since I don’t want to be that person that everyone knows for science fairs and plays and whatever. I don’t want to be the exception to the rule and I don’t want to be within the rule at all. I don’t want to be a foreigner in my own country and I don’t want to be one of the racists that call themselves “proud” or “worried” members of society. In the city that I live in, I’m a nobody. Nobody cares about where I’m from, usually, and it doesn’t matter what my migration background is. In the end, I’m one in 350k.

I’m a nobody. I like that. It’s my escape, I guess.

And if we move on to video game characters, you can see that a lot of my favourite protagonists from games are actually more of the opposite of me. Athena and Alloy and 2B are brave and strong and strong-willed, for instance. With video games as a medium to “escape reality”, I feel like it’s somewhat important for characters to be different from us “normies”. There have to be characters that are more extreme than us so that we can not identify us with them but rather live this power fantasy or be someone who we are not. I’m anxious and worried and have way too many fears, so I enjoy playing these tough, brave, strong characters in games, just as much as I enjoy playing “real” characters that are empathic and soft and weak.

Zagreus from Supergiant Games’ “Hades” is quite similar to me in the sense that he has to leave home to find himself and his destiny. I had to move out/away to be able to live my life properly and actually find what I’m cut out for. So, I kind of identify with that.

In the end, I feel like most of the book characters that I’d like to mention aren’t good options for this prompt as they don’t tell anything about me. The narrator from H.P. Lovecraft’s “The Colour from Outer Space” for instance is a character that I really like… Max Frisch’s “Andorra” has a character called the “Jemand” (Engl. the “Someone”) who is specifically named as “a person” and not just “someone” and who is looking at situations from the back row but not really getting involved in them. That character has nothing to do with me at all and I just like some of his witty remarks. I love Patrick Süßkind’s “Das Parfüm”, though, the characters in there are just ugly and don’t say much about me either. There is also a poem in Milk ‘n Honey that I really enjoyed and that I can identify with to a degree but I have entrusted my copy of that book to someone and didn’t receive it back, yet.

I mostly read books and poems and plays that depict dystopian times or tragedies. I love the setting of overly negative, pessimistic or tragic worlds with characters that go through a lot only to die at the end. Lovecraft, if you look past all the racism, has a lot of stories like that, so I really am enjoying those.

Luckily, I was able to still write about something after all. Hope you enjoyed this post. You can find my original post on the prompt over here. Tessa’s post can be found here. The next post in line would be Paeroka’s, so check theirs out.

Cheers!

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

Blaugust Prompt #7 – My Mascot?

Today’s prompt, hosted by The Rambling Redshirt, is about our mascots… if I had one, what would it be? Well, jokes on you, I’ve got one already!

I present to you… I mean… we’ve seen Magi already, haven’t we? 

Ages, ago, when I just started out doing pixel-art in Paint.net, I did attempt to re-pixel the black mage from Final Fantasy 1 but with a twist: It’s not a black mage but rather a Lich or a Necromancer! 

My character/mascot/avatar as a cultist-insect of sorts from Hollow Knight!

I practically always have adored magicians, wizards, mages and the like… and over time, I noticed that the bad guys in movies and games usually ended up being way cooler than most protagonists… alas, I depicted my “dream character” or whatever you wanna call it as a Necromancer: Someone who does the forbidden… necromancy… to fight his foes and rule over the world. An evil Overlord using minions to punish his enemies. Someone who’s actually doing evil to successfully accomplish their goal. I loved the idea of that. The sound of that is quite nice. A Lich or Lich King… or just a Necromancer or Cult Leader if not even an Overlord would be just the right character for me in that sense.

My “mascot”/avatar as a Dark Souls 3 character… with the Fallen Knight Armour, the holy Dr Pepper shield, the lothric knight sword, and the Crystal Sage Hat!

So, I did successfully re-pixel the Black Mage in Paint.net, which I was somewhat proud about… then I changed the blue and yellow from the original picture to a purple tone since I feel like purple is a lot more mystic and evil, if not even ominous and mysterious, than blue and yellow. The eyes suddenly were a deep and dark red staring out of the darkness… and overall, I was quite happy with this.

I love my little mage/lich/necromancer character to bits and jimmijamjams over here on Twitch actually ended up creating a GIF of my character! Absolutely lovely! If you visit me over here on Twitch, you’ll end up seeing it dance around in the corner somewhere, which is super cute and which I’m really grateful about! 

“magiwauwu” – a Tier 1 sub
emote on my Twitch channel!

MarsaOvO, another great streamer, also did a fantastic job, capturing the essence of my character into some wonderful and adorable emotes as you can see down below. I love the UwU emote to bits and it’s probably the cutest emote ever! 

“magiwashinderu”:
our rip emote

So, that’s essentially my “mascot”. I never really thought of it as a “mascot” per sé… rather, it was an Avatar of sorts for me. I used it on Discord, Reddit, Twitter and Twitch but since I rebranded a little bit on Twitch and everywhere, I’ve been using my logo over here instead. Alas, the mage character now only shows up on Stream, which is a bit of a bummer… but it works in the sense that it’s more of a mascot now. I love it. Magi the little Necromancer, I guess! 🙂 And since that name’s taken, I’ll be MagiWasTaken instead… or just Dan. 

So, I hope you enjoyed this little trip into the world of mascots and the like. The next post in line is by Tessa, so check her post out! What kind of characters do you have and what kind of mascots do you use? Are there any themes that you stick to usually? 

Cheers!

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

Note: This post would have been TSS#73. In case anyone counts or is wondering. I’ll probably drop the “TSS”-part during Blaugust to prevent overly long titles. Afterwards, I may return to it.

Blaugust Prompt #8 – My favourite Protagonists?

Today’s post starts a bit different from usual… first of all, the title is all weird, isn’t it? It is in the Stray Sheep category but… I’m dropping the numbers and all of that. If it’s in the Stray Sheep category, it shouldn’t need the “Stray Sheep” name in the title… followed by a number, like an issue or whatever… and it then is followed by a title, subtitle, and whatever… it just gets a bit messy and not that clean, so I thought I’d get rid of it. I may include the “number” or the “issue” somewhere as a note for anyone that wants to keep up.

Note: This post would be TSS#73. 

That being said, today’s prompt was (again, we’re in the future!) handled by Tessa over at Princess In The Castle! Check their original post out! The prompt’s “Tell us about some of your favourite protagonist/s and explain why!”

Favourite protagonists… that’s a tough nut. I personally am a huge fan of games where you create your own character and play them the way you want to… Thus, my favourite protagonist would probably be Lizz Winterfield also known as my Guild Wars 2 character with the noble background and uh… I honestly, don’t remember what backstory she had… she had the most human-sounding name ever though! Really liked that!

But while this sounds like a valid response, I doubt that it’s in line with the prompt to just take a character you created yourself. Instead, I’ll probably have to take a character that has an actual story and that actually changes over time and all of that. 

In that sense, Aloy from Horizon Zero Dawn is quite cool so far, though I haven’t gotten to know her too much just yet… Aloy is strong and developed. She already has gone through a lot of things and the story hasn’t even picked up all that much so far. While her ultimate goal is to find out who her mother was and what is going on in the world, she seems to make connections and learn more about herself and change her priorities. Despite being brave, strong-willed and passionate, she never seems inconsiderate, impatient or any of that. She’s still kind, strategic and mindful – hence, an overall really balanced out character that slowly evolves over time and I’m looking forward to getting to know her even more over the next few hours of the game.

2B from NieR: Automata is insanely cute as has that small romance going on with 9S and I really like her character due to her changing over time. While strict and obedient at the beginning, over time she begins to question the orders she receives from above and starts to think for herself, which is not the most original, I guess, but it still made her quite applaudable. I liked 2B – on a platonic level of course. 9S also was quite funny and cool, though I haven’t played around with him too much. 

Athena and CL4P-TP/Claptrap from Borderlands: The Pre-Sequel, on the other hand, where just fun to play as. You’re this awesome and funny character that just always has a line ready for enemies that are about to die… or you’re playing as Athena, the strong, independent mercenary that Handsome Jack hired to overtake Hyperion! I don’t know. I loved the Pre-Sequel more than BL2 and can’t wait to play the third game. I really enjoyed Lilith in the first game but I feel like Athena and CL4P-TP… and even Timothy/The Doppelganger was more fun than Lilith. 

Athena’s such a powerhouse of a character, always fueling the story with fun, sarcastic remarks while bashing through the front lines with her shield and weapon in hand. She’s strong-willed and brave – qualities befitting a gladiator!

Claptrap on the other hand is just… claptrap. I love him to bits. People find him annoying, I do disagree… but it’d be bad of me to try to explain while exactly he’s so awesome. You either love him or you hate him. If you’ve played the series, you’re on either one of the sites.

Apart from that, I loved Zagreus in Hades, though Supergiant Games have really always been great with their protagonists. Zagreus, the son of Hades and Persephone, tries to escape hell in an attempt to find his mother and find out the truth about her, after having been lied to by his father for all of eternity… and he’s always witty and, yet, somehow quite childish and rebellious when it comes to his father. He has a kind heart but is strong despite all of that. He’s got different relationships with the different characters in the game and responds to them accordingly… but what I mostly love about him is the respect he has for the recently parted… just adorable!

And then there’s also plenty of other characters… but while you’re able to name all kinds of cool characters when you’re talking about them freely, you surely cannot do so when asked to. I’d be able to add more another time for sure (though I prolly won’t do that) but right now I just can’t think of any other cool characters, which is a bit of a bummer, honestly, since there are so many more cool characters!

Either way, that’s it for today’s post. I hope you enjoyed this one! Here’s Tessa’s post again for anyone who hasn’t read it, yet,… and the next blogger in line is Paeroka over at Nerdy Bookahs, so check them out over there! 

Cheers!

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

TSS#72 – Blaugust Prompt #6 – My favourite quote(s)

What is my favourite Quote and why? Who the fuck is Todd Howards anyways? Why the fuck do I need to drag philosophy into this? These questions and possibly others in today’s post!

“Today” is Wilhelm’s turn to hold the Blaugust baton and host “today”‘s prompt for the Blaugust Promptapalooza! “Today” is in quotation marks since I’m actually in the future and will just move these posts back to the past once I’ve caught up with the posts… Life’s a bit messy with my studies and everything. That’s why I’m kind of hitting my limits here on the blogging front… ugh, I’m looking forward to when the last exam is over! 

Today’s prompt is “What is your favourite quote/s, and why?”

Over the past few years, I’ve had a ton of different quotes that I really liked. Here are a few of my favourites followed by my favourite quote at the end! + a bonus quote by Todd Howards!

“Der einzige Mann, der wirklich nicht ohne Frauen leben kann, ist der Frauenarzt”

Arthur Schopenhauer

This roughly translates to “The only man that is not able to live without women is the gynaecologist”. Arthur Schopenhauer was a German philosopher that lived from 1788 to 1860 and who believed/taught that our world is based on an irrationality… I could go into what that means and if I agree BUT I think that would be rather boring. 

It’s short and somewhat witty, I guess? I feel like that’s important for quotable stuff. The categorical imperative by Kant is way too wordy and way too long for people to not die of boredom while listening to someone quoting it. This quote up there? Just long enough. I wouldn’t say that it’s my favourite quote but regardless of that, it’s still lovely. 

“If you tell the truth, you don’t have to remember anything.”

Mark Twain

This one’s another witty and short one. Easily to remember. Easy to live by. Just tell the truth and nothing but the truth. You don’t have to remember the lies that you thought of and you won’t get bitten in the back by the lies that you jumbled up. Lies can be messy and I usually try to be as honest as possible. Obviously, there are white lies and other instances where you can’t exactly tell the truth… Half-truths probably are worse than lies in my opinion, especially as you knowingly try to manipulate and potentially even gaslight others. Alas, I just try to stick to the truth as much as possible as that’s the easiest way to deal with all kinds of situations.

“Just because she likes the same bizarro crap you do doesn’t mean she’s your soul mate.”

Rachel Hansen (played by Chloë Grace Moretz)

This one’s out of (500) Days of Summer. As previously mentioned, it’s my favourite movie and I love that movie to bits even if it has got its issues here and there. In the movie, there is a scene where Tom Hansen (played by Joseph Gordon-Levitt) is playing some Wii game with his sister Rachel while talking about Summer Finn (played by Zooey Deschanel), the girl that he’s in love with. He’s just head over heels over her… and Rachel says that which I found quite fitting for a lot of things in life. Just because “everything fits”, that doesn’t have to mean that the person of interest is “the one”. In the past, I’ve met (and fallen for) someone who had exactly the same interests as me. 

Be it movies, bands and other hobbies, we were near to identical on an interest-level – on top of that, I was able to talk to her for hours without any issues at all or awkward silence or whatever. BUT then I watched this movie for the 17th time (at that time… right now we’re at 21 times) and noticed… just because we like the same crap, that doesn’t mean that we should get married and get kids and die together and whatever. It just means that we’d make great friends. Alas, I calmed down and we became friends, which I’m more than happy about, to be honest. It would have gotten so bad if we would have ended up together… Hence, this quote is a bit of a lifesaver in a way? I feel like it’s something that people should keep in mind sometimes. Oh well. 

At last, my favourite quote:

“The pain I feel now is the happiness I had before.”

C.S. Lewis

C.S. Lewis is a giant in the literary world. I loved “The Great Divorce” but Lewis is probably more well-known for the “Narnia Chronicles”, which I actually haven’t read at all. Either way, this is my favourite quote. I don’t know where it is from but I stumbled across it in “Getting Over It with Bennett Foddy” and I loved it immediately.

While, again, short and witty, it summarizes what I’d call the “essence of life” in just eleven words. And it does it well. After every joyful moment, there is this down-phase that you feel. After happiness comes pain and after the climax comes the catastrophe. I’m speaking of plays, naturally. No horny writing here. After every good bender, you get that huge hangover. After every happy and sunny day comes a rainy one. But while that sounds very pessimistic, I feel like it’s quite optimistic and hopeful. 

In essence, it’s not limited to this direction but also to the opposite one. After you’ve hit rock-bottom, you won’t steep lower: It’s only going up. After every down-phase you have, you’ll get better. Eventually. Everything will be okay. Everything will work out. 

At this point, I’d like to elaborate with another quote that I highly adore (aka a bonus entry!):

“It just works.”

Todd Howards

It just works… or rather it just works out. In the end, all is well that ends well and all that is happening will get better. Hope is never lost and when you feel pain right now, you’ll feel happiness afterwards. It can’t get worse than this right? 2020 – and I don’t want to jinx anything here – can’t possibly get worse than this, right? Well, I guess it can… but it’s not going to be the end of the world (oh boy, I’m jinxing what should have happened in 2012). It’s gonna work out. It just works.

Obviously, that’s not my favourite but it’s quite applicable to all kinds of things in life. Just like how Skyrim “just works”, life also “just works”. It will be alright. It will work out. No worries, keep your head up, move on. Move forward. “Keep calm and drink tea” or something like that. 

“The pain I feel now is the happiness I felt before” is something that got me through a bunch of times where I wasn’t sure how to deal with anything in my life. My father got sick or rather worse when I just moved away. My studies didn’t go well but I didn’t want to worry my parents. I ended up not knowing what to do next. Similarly, I’ve had some very bad breakups in the past and didn’t know what to do about it. And then I started playing Getting Over It and encountered that quote and it all made sense. It all “just works”. It really did. 

Without the happiness that I felt before, I wouldn’t have gotten hurt. If I didn’t meet her, I wouldn’t have felt that pain. At the same time though, because I suffered at that point in time, I was able to be happy again afterwards. Without ever feeling down or upset or sad… without being depressed or anxious… you can’t really be truly happy, right? Without ever getting hurt, you can’t say that you actually lived, right? 

I feel like that’s important in life in general. The pain you feel now is the happiness you felt before. I love it. The pain you feel now will be the happiness you feel soon. 

And I guess that’s where I end this post. I really enjoyed this prompt. It turned out longer than I thought it would but that’s no biggie, I’d say. Check out Wilhelm’s original post over here… and, well, The Friendly Necromancer is the next one in line for the Blaugust baton! So check them out as well! 🙂 

Cheers!

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

Humble Choice – August 2020

Oh boy, August’s Humble Choice… is great! I was wondering what this month’s gonna be like and I was surprised at the number of games from my wishlist… but I feel like I’m drifting away here. 

What were my choices? Why did I pick them? In what order did I decide on picking them? 

Well,… Classic and Premium subscribers get all 12 choices this month only, so I had to pick all of them… but still, there are some games that I’m probably give/gift away while there are others that I picked because I’m excited about it. Hence the post. 

So here are my picks for August’s Choice:

1) Through The Darkest Of Times

Ever since I played the first chapter of it at last year’s GamesCom and ever since I had that interview with one of the devs back then, I have been meaning to play it… but other games always managed to find their way in first… So, now’s my chance to play it. It’s essentially a historic and very strategic management-game where you’re the leader of a small resistance group in 1933’s Berlin. It’s quite similar to the White Rose – and from what I’ve heard from the Devs, they’re going for a very detailed approach of what happened and how it happened. This is something that I find very applaudable. You essentially try to deal small blows to the Nazi regime by dropping leaflets or painting messages on walls, sabotaging them, gathering information and recruiting more people. This was basically an instant lock!

2) A Case Of Distrust

This was one of the aforementioned titles that just happened to be on my wishlist for ages now. It plays in 1924’s San Francisco and features a great soundtrack, an interesting story, lovely visuals and (just like TTDOT) historically accurate details. Honestly, it’s a narrative mystery game and someone once recommended it to me, so I wanted to try it out when it’s on Sale or whatever… and the themes of poverty, racism, and emancipation as well as other issues are something that is of interest to me. I really am looking forward to playing and possibly writing about this game!

3) Automachef

You build production lines for food… it’s a management game again… I want to play it. As you may be able to tell, I’m not really sure what to say about this one. From what I’ve seen it looks a bit like SpaceChem but less complicated and with some cute animations. I like the automation/optimization aspects of games like Satisfactory, Good Company or tycoon/management games like this one… so I’m looking forward to this title. Might be a lot of fun!

4) Wargroove

Being another title from my wishlist, I ended up picking this one without really looking at it. I mean, I thought it was like Fire Emblem… and the graphics are cute… and it’s by Chucklefish Ltd., which is always a good sign… and it’s a turn-based strategy game, which is always quite nice. I’m looking forward to this title.^^

5) Call of Cthulhu

As a Lovecraft fan (his works, not his views), I must say that I’m not a fan of Lovecraftian games. While that sounds contradicting (after all, I like games… and Lovecraft), it’s mostly due to a lot of games not depicting the aspects of Eldritch and Lovecraftian Horror too well. Therefore, I usually stray away from them since essentially too many games are calling themselves “Eldritch” or “Lovecraftian” these days. There are some good titles that depict the psychological aspect of Lovecraftian Stories quite well, like Call of Cthulhu: Darkest Corners of Earth… but a lot of other games are doing Lovecraft’s name no good, which is something that I always worry about. Call of Cthulhu, the game that I picked here, is a game that I have mixed feelings about. While the steam reviews are “mostly positive”, I still am a bit worried that it may be a disappointment. Either way, it’s now a choice and I’ll play it myself! Completely blind! Potentially during Spooktober on Twitch!

6) We Were Here Together

This seems to be a puzzle game that is Co-Op-ONLY and requires you to communicate with your partner in order to solve puzzles together. Duh. The concept sounds rad, the world looks cool, and it’s also been on my wishlist for not too long since I heard that it’s quite challenging at parts… so I’m looking forward to this. Potentially I could play this with MuddChi on Twitch since she likes Puzzle games! I’m excited!

7) Genesis Alpha One Deluxe Edition

Long title for a game that features an even longer list of genres… We’re in space and build our own ship and expand and create life forms and procedural generation and shooting and action and what the actual fuck is this abomination of a game? I love it! Looking forward to seeing what it’s actually like… it just seemed to be something that is a wild mix of all kinds of things… and I couldn’t be bothered to try to comprehend all the information on this title (maybe I need more coffee?), so I ended up just picking it up! 

8) VAMPYR

Honestly, I am not too much of a fan of vampires in games but I love it when you can be “the bad guy”… and that’s something you do in this game… I think… at least you can opt in to “embrace the monster within”. I can also decide on “dooming London” instead of saving it… so I may actually like this game. The aesthetic seemed cool, too… I’ll just have to see how much fun it actually is. 

9) Hello Neighbor

It’s a stealth horror game… but it’s less dark and less jump-scare-y than other games in the genre, so I thought this might be quite fun to play during Spooktober as well. Essentially the remaining few games are either “eh” or “alright”, so I didn’t really know what to pick out of the remaining ones. Luckily, Humble choice chooses me by just letting me pick ALL OF THEm. Btw, it’s spelt “neighbor” but I like the British variant more with the U… This game is gonna be interesting, so I’m looking forward to playing it! – Oh, and it also features extra content in the form of “Hello Neighbour: Hide and Seek”, so uh, make sure to grab that, if you grab this month’s Humble Choice!

10) Little Big Workshop

This one was harder. Spot 10 would have either been Little Big Workshop OR The Coma 2: Vicious Sisters… but why? Technically, Little Big Workshop would be exactly the kind of tycoon/management-style game that I like and adore… but it just seemed very similar to a lot of other games that I have tried before… and games that I have seen before. The art style is different but it really reminded me of the upcoming “Good Company”… so I was a bit hesitant… but in the end, I’d pick this title over The Coma 2 due to it being a tycoon/management game. 

Alas, the “drop-outs” that I’ll just give away since I get all 12 choices this month:

The Coma 2: Vicious Sisters

It’s an atmospheric, story-driven Horror Game set in Korea (judging from the names) where you have to survive the horrors presented to you by Dark Song, solve puzzles, craft items and reveal clues. The game seemed interesting but also rather clunky in terms of design and art style. I’ve got to pick it up regardless of my thoughts on it but I would have dropped it if I didn’t have 12 choices. 

American Fugitive: State of Emergency

This title seemed just like a trashy title that I wouldn’t like at first… but then something caught my eye: Fallen Tree Games, the studio behind it, is run by two people that have worked on titles like Crysis and (more importantly) TimeSplitters before… and I loved the TimeSplitters games… so, I may check this game out on YouTube and then decide on whether or not to keep it or not… in any case, I would have dropped it if I had had only 10 choices.

These two titles will probably be given away. Again, I may reconsider that in the case of American Fugitive… but it probably is better as a gift/giveaway.

Oh, and since I was “loyal” to Humble Bundle and stuck around for the last couple of months, I now own the Bonus Game: “Vikings – Wolves of Midgard”, which seems to be a hack n slay title that is… uh… interesting. I don’t usually like Vikings but I accidentally redeemed this one instead of a different game, so now I own both of them. 

The DRM-free extras that are contained in the August 2020 Choice consist of Zodiac XX, Wildfire (Sneak Peek), and Booth! Wildfire is something that I’ve been aware of before… and I’m looking forward to eventually playing the full game… Playing this sneak peek now is going to be a treat! Zodiac XX looks interesting… Booth could also be quite cool… I’ll probably write about those games!

But yeah, that’s it for this month’s Choice. I feel like they are adding too many Simulation or Management type games these days, which probably upsets other people… I’ve heard that a lot of people pause it more often than not… and then there’s the issue of some of these games appearing in Bundles afterwards for a lot less money… It’s a total of 300€ worth of money if you were to buy them at their full price… but I doubt that everyone’s interested in all of them and I’d say that it isn’t necessarily “worth it” to get this Choice if you’re only interested in one of the games… In my case, I really was a fan of “A Case Of Distrust”, “Through the Darkest of Times”, “Call of Cthulhu”, “Wargroove”, “Automachef”, and “We Were Here Together”, so naturally I’d go for this. Totally worth it for me. “Vampyr” might be fun… and the other titles might be quite interesting. We’ll see!

It could be a lot better if they added more variety to it. RPGs, Shooters, Horror, Simulations, Indie, AA, AAA, Story Games, Casual Games, etc. Mix it up a bit more. Especially when October comes, the choices should be more “special” to attract more people. While I like Simulation and Management games… I don’t think that everyone is going to agree with all of this and just continue their sub for this service if it’s really for just one game and one game only, every month.

Anyways, I hope this post helped you make your *choice* (haha.) and I hope you enjoyed this one! 

Cheers!

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

TSS#71 – Blaugust Prompt #5 – Rituals?

This brings me back a bit but I actually talked about today’s prompt before when I just started blogging and when I entered Blaugust for the first time last year. It feels like ages but it’s only been a year since I wrote about this. Today’s prompt is the following: 

Everyone has specific rituals that they follow, tell us about one of yours.

The post that everwake is hosting over here is quite similar to an older post over here. Rituals… there are a bunch that I actually follow. 

For instance, I used to do Kendo, Iaido and Iodo for three years a while back and in our Dojo (or potentially all Dojos?) we had to do a small bow whenever we entered the room in the direction of the corner that is the farthest from the door. Essentially, you’re bowing to the “Elders” in spirit that have trained there before you. I’m not training any sword-fighting anymore but I am still doing that whenever I enter halls… probably out of habit. I mean, I don’t do a full-on bow (90°) but rather just a tiny one… like a nod, I guess? 

One of my rituals also includes watching my plants in Viridi grow!

I feel like that ritual is more of a habit, but despite that, I still follow it. I don’t try to get rid of that habit. I rather go with it since it doesn’t harm me and also doesn’t require too much energy to do. It’s mostly subconscious and just every now and then someone points it out, asking why I did that. Rarely do I ever notice myself doing it but honestly, I wouldn’t care. If there are “spirits” or “ghosts” of the people that trained there before you, I’d like to pay them respects. Imagine angering them or being rude towards them while using the same halls as them. That’d suck.

And if we stay on the topic of sports, I actually used to play Volleyball. I wasn’t really good at all that much apart from the front positions due… but I was nearly excellent at the service. I’d be able to land six or seven points in a row due to me landing the ball exactly on the backline so that people would think that’s it out of the field… but it’s actually still in there. 

To get those points and to be able to service that well, I followed a stupid ritual of me dribbling the ball three times in specific spots before then holding up the ball in front of me and then just slamming it away. My service was good but I sucked at everything else, so naturally, I’d try to get as many points out of my service as possible to make up for my lacking skill… and it worked. Those stupid rituals annoyed everyone but it really helped me do well. 

And when it comes to blogging, I tend to get some coffee in the morning or make some tea during at later hour before writing. I tend to forget about my tea/coffee during the writing process but I like the smell while writing and I made it a habit of mine to drink it beforehand… cold coffee is alright… but nothing goes against some hot coffee in the morning, y’know?

I noticed that I tend to make herbal teas for when I write reviews and fruit teas for when I write Stray Sheep. I love Camomile tea, for instance! Or some mint tea… I have nice liquorice root and mint flavoured tea over here that tastes really well and is able to make my day no matter what’s going on outside… of course, green and black teas are also awesome! For my birthday, I received some nice Oolong and Jasmine tea here, though I tend to get a whole can of that stuff usually.

Plants are cute!

I don’t usually believe in superstition or rituals like that but I tend to follow a lot of them. I probably am following a bunch of rituals and routines without even noticing them. Another stupid one would be that I always spit three times when I brush my teeth. I don’t know why but more or less than that just feel weird… and maybe my OCD just gets triggered when I do it four times or two times… 

And well, definitions are also a thing. Some of these “rituals” could actually just be habits. To begin with, is something really a routine or a habit if you’re not doing it with the intention of doing it? If you’re subconsciously taking a bow before entering a hall, is that really a ritual or maybe just some habit? 

In the end, it doesn’t matter though. Routines help you organize and structurize tasks and schedules. Without them, a lot of things would suck a bunch more… Without routines, you forget important steps. Without rituals, you may not get motivated enough to write up a post or get some work done, for instance. Without some of these habits, you wouldn’t be as successful, I reckon! 

Routines are nice and I like that I have some in my life. The same goes of course for rituals, superstition, and habits – subconscious or conscious doesn’t matter in that regard. Of course, there are bad habits but I’m getting rid of those slowly over time, I’d say. 

Read everwake’s post over here and check out Wilhelm from The Ancient Gaming Noob over here as he’s hosting the next prompt!

Cheers!

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

TSS#70 – Blaugust Prompt #4 – Underrated Content?

Today, we’ve got another more “difficult” prompt: “What type of content do you feel is severely underrated?”

This time around the prompt’s not difficult due to me struggling with words but rather because of the ambiguity of it. Roger pointed in his post out that it could be referencing writing and blogging… but also could be about video games, TV, movies, videos, etc. 

But just like Roger, I’ll stick to the first meaning of the prompt as it’s a blogging event after all. Also, I think I might be able to actually work with this interpretation of the prompt in contrast to the other one. 

So, at first, I couldn’t really think of how to approach this post… factually, I should bring out numbers and stats that – at least in my case – indicate content that doesn’t do well… despite actually being good. The problem with this is that there are many factors as to why a post is not doing good. Maybe the category that I’m blogging in is just too saturated at the moment and hence, people pick other blog posts over mine. Or maybe I didn’t get picked up by Google or Social Media algorithms, hence not getting as much coverage for my post… another reason for missing views would be a boring prompt or topic… or the post just sucked.

My review on Necrobarista actually did quite well despite it being somewhat niche!

Either way, there are a lot of reasons for a post not doing too well but I know for a fact that a lot of the huge Indie blogs and websites out there rely on specific posts (i.e. tier lists, top 10 lists, clickbait-y articles, etc.) to reel in those views. These posts would be what I’d call “overrated content”.

Apart from “TOP 10 UPCOMING ROGUELIKE GAMES!!!11!” or other posts in that general category that could all be copy-pasted without anyone noticing, there are also other forms of more rentable posts. Recently, I’ve been featured in a “Top 40 Indie Blogs” list on Feedspot on the 11th spot, which I’m quite happy about, but I noticed that a lot of these blogs and websites that are being featured on there are essentially either platforms to buy games (Indiegala, itch.io, etc.) OR forums OR sites like Alpha Beta Gamer that are able to post three posts per day due to the small and compact posts. And there is nothing wrong with that but I noticed that in contrast to that my posts are doing considerably less well… which is because of my lengthy review format. 

“In today’s day and age”, people don’t want to read a post for five to ten minutes to get a conclusion on whether or not to buy a game. They’d rather get a TL;DR at the beginning summarizing the most important bits and pieces before clicking off the side. The actual post wouldn’t get read by those people since it’s not worth their time… With posts that are generally 1100 words long, mine are probably too long for most people. Even with my rather colloquial speech and informal choice of words, my posts may not be approachable for “the masses” as they are just too long. And I’m already cutting down on them – after all, it’s not 3.9k words anymore like with my Moonlighter review… 

Good question!

Therefore, I’d call longer In-Detail (see what I did there?… or what I didn’t do there?) Reviews “underrated”, subjectively speaking.

I used to play the games that I reviewed for a rather long time, then spend about three to four hours working on the actual post, writing it up, editing it, and all of that before then working on the layout, the screenshots, and other things that needed to be done. Overall, it took me ages to finish one review. Ever since I cut down on the length and went for 1k words instead of 3-4k, it has become less work although it still requires as much effort since I often write too much and need to cut down on unnecessary words, sentences, and paragraphs. In the end, it became a lot easier to write up a review or two per week.

If I were to cut down on even more words and essentially just go for a TLDR instead of the full review, I’d end up with micro-posts that could be shipped out daily if not even twice per day. The problem with those is that I’d need to play the games for a time to be able to write about them… unless of course, I do it like some of the bigger outlets that do not even write about their own experience with the game but just report on a game coming out. That’s essentially what I’m doing with the Lookout Post… but I try to be still quite subjective and rather personal about it. I’m not going to turn the posts over there into fact sheets about games coming out and hand out recommendations without actually having played any games. 

My post on Critters for Sale is a post that didn’t do too well view-wise although it’s a lovely game and although I feel like my post is quite neat… whatever^^

In the case of Children of Morta, for instance, I received a review key a week before release with an embargo for the review. I played about ten to twelve hours of it if not more before heading to WordPress to write about the game. If I had played more of that, I would have seen how repetitive it could get and how often it can turn into a grindfest of sorts… I also didn’t get to test out co-op at all… so that’s a bummer. If I had played more of the game, I would have known about that, but I also wanted to get the post out while the game is still “fresh” and “new”.

If someone bought the game and would have then regretted it after ten hours because it turned rather grindy… then that would have sucked for them and I would have felt bad for that… I still play it every now and then and I really do enjoy even the grindy aspects of it, but that’s not what my review is saying. Alas, I’ll have to revisit that review and post a follow-up eventually once I played even more of the game and even unlocked the new character. 

Bigger outlets, though, didn’t even comment on a lot of the issues that I noted down. They didn’t see a lot of the good points, either. They just commented on this game existing and it coming out with information about the first hour or two of gameplay, which is honestly quite the bummer. The bigger outlets are essentially mass-producing content like that: Short reviews with little to no insights on the actual game and with a lot of things shrugged off. I don’t personally like that and I want to create better reviews in the future and hence am sticking to the underrated content – also known as the long Indietail Reviews (now I did it!) instead of the overrated TLDR-post with 200 words at most and at least five pages so that they can farm more clicks.

Note: There are of course bigger sites that are doing a great job with their reviews… but those usually also care about the quality of their content or they have multiple authors that are doing that for a living, so it should be natural that they’re not shitposting for the sake of easy views. 

So, what’s the conclusion of this post… Longer reviews aren’t the best way to grow but I don’t really care because I don’t want to shitpost either. If I look at stats, I can see that a lot of my reviews are doing really well (-> which is something I’ll talk about in a different post) while some others are not doing as well but it just depends on different factors after all… And while longer reviews (I love reading them on other sites) are quite superior despite being underrated, I can still understand that shorter TLDR-micro-posts are the way to go for big outlets that earn money using those posts.

I hope you enjoyed this post. Any thoughts on long/short reviews? Got any other ideas for overrated or underrated content? Let me know! 

The next post in the “Big Blaugust Promptapalooza Blog Crawl” (BBPBC?!?!?!) is everwake whose post should already be out since I’m late. Check them and their blog out! You can find Roger’s post over here again, so give it a read! It’s always a pleasure to read a post by him, especially as he’s someone who shaped my view on languages. 🙂 

Cheers!

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

TSS#69 – Blaugust Prompt #3 – Media shapes your worldview?

Blaugust Day 3 is here, and I’m late since I struggled with putting my thoughts into words.

“What are some key sources of media (games/movies/etc.) that have shaped your worldview?”

I do not like this prompt. 

My worldview is based on all the experiences that I accumulated over the course of the last 21 years of my life. 13 years out of those 21 consisted of me getting bullied and harassed in school. Those years really shaped me and made me the person that I am today. Some of the issues that I amassed during that time still haunt me to this day and only recently I got told that certain people have been gaslighting me… even though I thought that they were helping. Toxic and abusive relationships I had in the past, still haunt me to this day as I still struggle with my self-esteem and how I view myself. 

Alas, I feel like I’m a bad person to talk about how things shape you and how your worldview changes over time because of media. I noticed that a lot of bad people have made me feel bad and alas my worldview ended up being the whole “love and let love, live and let live” thingy that I’m going for and I feel like it works… somewhat? 

I guess I could elaborate on this but my last few attempts of elaborating have gone horribly wrong and I don’t want to make people worry or anything like that, so I just won’t… instead, we’ve got some screenshots here from my journey in DS3 that should tie quite well into Roger’s post since he also talks about different kinds of posts and since screenshots are always fun, right?  

The next post in line is by Mr Peril. Check out Mailvaltar’s post again if you haven’t already!

Cheers!

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

TSS#68 – Blaugust Prompt #2 – Unpopular Opinions

“What is some popular piece of content/media that seems to be universally loved that you have never been able to understand?” – That’s today’s prompt, “hosted” by @Dragonray over at AzerothianLife.

In their post, Dragon actually talked about Game of Thrones and I completely agree with her views. I personally only have watched the first 5.5 seasons and ever since I had my own red wedding over here after a little knife accident at home (a year ago), I couldn’t watch the show anymore. Jokingly I’d say that it may be some sort of PTSD since the scar on my hand hurts whenever I start up GoT again… I highly recommend checking out Dragonray’s post! While I personally like some parts of the show (Arya’s, Danaerys’, and John’s (particularly the wildling arc) parts were lovely so far), I hate a lot of other parts with the glorified rape and assault and discrimination against all sorts of people. 

I feel like the show is trying to go for shock moments to reel in more views. It’s trying to get controversial to essentially make more money since bad PR is good PR. In that regard, I hate it. While you may say that it’s an adaptation and that the source material is at fault… I’d disagree since at some point the show got very loose from the books (and honestly, I haven’t read them and I doubt I ever will). Going for shock moments for the sake of being edgy is just stupid. It’s like the racism and discrimination in Beat Cop, a game that I criticized a lot. It’s there to be edgy or to cater to some people’s tastes. People want to get to know and want to love some of the characters – and people love it when those people get killed off. Of course, they hate it… but they get caught off-guard and like it then, I guess? 

And then there is Sex for instance. Everyone likes sex – apart from people that don’t… but quite often, it’s just there without having to be there. Due to the budget being low at one point, the creators didn’t actually show one of the battles since they couldn’t afford all the soldiers and animations and stuff… instead, they used “the messenger’s report”. I may make a post about this (and more drama theory in the future) but it essentially is a technique to show something without actually showing it. Someone just reports on what happened somewhere – or someone’s standing on a wall and is reporting what he’s seeing over there. In the viewers’/audience’s head, the battle is very vivid and brutal when in fact, nothing has been shown. In GoT they do this relatively early (one of the first two seasons?) while this one person is having sex with a prostitute. So they saved money and showed people sex so that they don’t get bored. 

I’m ashamed to admit that this picture took me way too long as I was trying to figure out how to edit the baby yoda so that the lighting works better but I just couldn’t get it done with my paint.net skills, so I ended up just leaving it like this. The Baby Yoda means haven’t stopped. This is only the beginning. (Just kidding, this is the first and the last baby yoda meme that I probably will ever make)

While I’m not against sex, I don’t like the fact that it’s present in the show at nearly all times. Even when the mob is coming for the royals, the creators have to add in rape or attempted rape to make it more extreme… While I applaud the use of the messenger’s report in that earlier example, I condemn the latter as it’s just horny writing at best. People living their fantasies. Incest, Rape, Assault, Violence against women, a crossbow pointed at a prostitute while she’s getting fucked. That kind of thing. 

Thus, I didn’t really get why people love it so much without condemning the moral aspects of it. 

Note: The GoT opening theme is stuck in my head now. Help.

But this post is not at its end here (as you can see for yourself)… I didn’t really want to just post about my views being really similar to Dragonray’s regarding GoT and thus, I thought I’d talk about an unpopular opinion of mine, so watch out, trigger warning ahead…

I don’t like Star Wars…

I don’t really get the universe and while I watched a lot of the movies it all just felt not that good to me… I don’t like a lot of the characters and plotlines… the best part of the show may be the part where that one stormtrooper (or clone warrior? soldier? whatever?) bonks his head against that ceiling pipe. 

I’m referring to the first six movies by the way – I haven’t ever thought of watching the newer movies… I just don’t like the universe I guess? I like Sci-Fi… Star Trek was actually quite cool. Star Gate was also quite alright. The Last Generation is a wonderful story. Robot Dreams – really nice! Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep? – absolutely awesome! Star Wars – not so much… it’s technically Science-Fantasy but that’s only because of the Jedi-Magic and stuff and the setting in the past… 

And this might tie into the post about fandoms and stuff but people get really defensive about Star Wars. “yOU DoN’t LiKE S T A R W A R S?! HOw coULD YOu?!” followed by some insults. I don’t know. People are weird. Don’t hate me please because of me not liking your favourite movie. We can still watch it together but I’ll probably fall asleep. You can hate on all the Tim Burton movies I enjoy… You can hate on Corpse Bride and 9 and Frankenweenie. You can hate on my absolute favourite movie, (500) Days of Summer and insult me about how the score isn’t that incredible or how the female lead character, Summer Finn (played by Zooey Deschanel), is a Manic Pixie Dream Girl. I still like the movie. And even if I find Star Wars boring, you can still enjoy it and talk about it as I love it when people are passionate about their interests, just like I love my stuff.

So, there’s my second Blaugust post. I hope you enjoyed it. I linked it above but here’s Dragonray’s post again. Highly recommend! Tomorrow’s prompt will be presented to you by Mailvaltar, so check them out! 🙂 

Cheers!

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!