TSS #60 – Toxic People

This is a post about toxic people and toxicity in general, I guess. And to make this post less sad or personal or heavy, I’m also adding cat pictures into the mix – and I’m not adding any pictures of cats that I know and love but generic cat pictures from the wordpress library to make it less personal and more generic. I hope you enjoy these.

I’ve recently had to deal with someone whose friend I was for six years (or probably more at this point) and whose just company wasn’t doing any good for me at all. I didn’t know what to do about it. I always was hoping that it would get better eventually or I was making excuses as I don’t know what he’s going through, but that’s the point: After six+ years, I still don’t know a thing about this “friend” and I’ve never really had an actual conversation outside of video games and other interests with this person. And that’s weird. It’s scary to an extent. You think you “know” someone but you don’t at all. Everything you think you know about that person may be a lie. My girlfriend actually suggested that I cut ties with him and that that would probably do me more good and while I acted as if that’s something new, I actually knew that it’s something I’d have to do eventually.

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This guy would have no problems at all with judging others and cutting them off for the stupidest reasons, like getting into a girl’s pants, period. At the same time, everything that you’d do that wasn’t on his side got treated as “treason” and you’d essentially get guilt-tripped into thinking that you’re in the wrong, to the point where it fucks with your personality. He’s (probably) six years older than me. I say probably as I don’t know if he’s really 27 or if that’s a lie as well. After all, I don’t know if he actually has a job if he’s broke all the time or if he actually is studying right now if he seems to play games all day and know nothing about psychology or empathy or whatever. I was fourteen when I got to know him and he always thought of himself as someone who’s teaching me about all kinds of things when he really was just pushing his ego. And in hindsight, it really screwed with me to have a person like that around for that long at that age.

These 351 words here are probably wasted on him but since I kicked him off my discord, removed him from social media and just didn’t talk to him at all anymore and cut him off without a word to him or any other friends, I felt that I should maybe write about it. I should maybe talk about it. Just to get it off my mind. Alas, there’s this post here. This post where I talk about toxic people in my life and how I’m trying to deal with it.

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I’ve had this teacher for nine years and he’d always blame me for all kinds of things even when I didn’t have anything to do with them. He would manipulate me and laugh about me and overall he was the biggest douche I know, to this day. The only reason for me to go to school was the fact that I was in that Drama club… but he would lead it and since everybody loved him and his fresh way of teaching, I couldn’t really speak up about it as I’d be the outsider who’s trying to be edgy and be against the mainstream (or something like that). I also didn’t want to get kicked out of the Drama club. So, I stayed in the club for nine years.

When I graduated, that teacher was basically patting himself on the back for those nine years where I have been an active member. That teacher was basically bragging in front of a whole gym hall full of people that he was the person that raised me to the person who I am now. And he’s not going to hear it from me now. After all, the only thing that is going to change if I talk to him about it or if I go public about it, is the way he’ll treat my younger siblings in class, giving them an even harder time and bad grades for no reasons. And when they graduate, it will already be too late for me to speak up about the disgusting human being that that teacher is – in my opinion. It won’t make a difference at all if I were to talk about the stuff he put me through. If he lost his job, he wouldn’t be able to feed his family at all. After all, he got married and has a child with one of his former students, and nobody wouldn’t want to destroy that, right?

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So, what I’m trying to get at is: Fuck people. They suck. Most of them. I’ve met plenty of great people out there. The Blaugustans, my girlfriend, a ton of people who I met through twitch, and some other great friends: They are all great. I’m glad that I’m part of some of these communities and I know there’s plenty of other great people that I haven’t met in a while… but at the same, there are even more douchebags and jerks and hosers over there…

Recently I’ve talked to Roger from containsmoderateperil again and we had this discussion about how life is too short for a lot of things. He also found out that he’s older than my father, which apparently was not apparent… but either way…

Life’s just too short for all of those jerks and scumbags. Life’s too short to give a fuck about any of them. And life’s too short to keep any of them around or to be angry about them. I guess this post is pointless in a way. The person I recently cut ties with in my life didn’t even bother to reach out to me so that basically reaffirms to me that it was the right choice to make. Let’s just hope that he won’t cause trouble sooner or later. Same thing for that teacher or for a certain blogger who used to cause trouble but who just doesn’t care anymore.

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Life’s too short, so just don’t get overagitated about that kind of thing, I guess. :c Uh, but that’s also bad advice and probably is not always the thing to do. Sometimes it’s just easier to ignore it… or you set the bar super low to never get disappointed! Or you just surround yourself with pleasant things in order to prevent yourself getting damaged or whatever.

So that’s it for today’s post. Have a nice one!


TSS#49 – Playing chess with pigeons

This is my 101st post on this blog ever since its creation at the end of July. And this post is about Corona. Woohoo.

In today’s Stray Sheep, we’re talking about some annoying bits regarding the lockdown and my situation right now.

I’m healthy. I’m safe. I’m fine. Overall, I guess. Lately, I’ve been feeling more exhausted than usual and I’m getting tired all the time, which is why I’m occasionally going out to jog around the blog for a bit, take a break, and then do a couple of sprints, just to stay in shape. Going for a five-minute walk to the grocery store (up-hill but still not that hard) results in me being out of breath, which is bad. Like, really bad.
Hence, I’m starting to do a bit of training at home.

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Taking walks more often, jogging and sprinting are great ways of doing things right now to keep up the stamina. My stamina never was great, so I’m mostly dead when I come back home.
Apart from that, I’m trying to for a few situps and pushups as well as a bit of weight-lifting before I go for a shower. And I don’t do that to be healthier or whatever… that’s mostly just me trying to be a bit more comfortable in my own body. Another reason for me doing that would be the fact that my girlfriend actually started training a bit, too, so I don’t want to end up with smaller arms than her at the end of the lockdown, haha.

Jokes aside, what’s being annoying right now is the fact that people are spreading a lot of conspiracy theories, fake news and overall rumours. It’s really bad. Some people are saying that Bill Gates and WHO have the patent on COVID-19 and that they deliberately spread it to stop Trump’s victories and to profit off of a vaccine… and as with every lie there’s a bit of a true in there: They actually own the patent to a lot of Corona-viruses but mostly for their way of creating a vaccine with the World Health Organisation owning the patent while Bill Gates is funding it. So, there’s a bit of a hoax right there.

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Just the other day, someone got into a discussion with me because I “believe in global warming and climate change”. “Global warming is not a religion, but sure, guess I’ll have some fun with this guy”, is what I thought but, at some point, they started to bore me and right when I was about to stop discussing the matter, someone else hopped into the discussion, claiming that “weather” and “climate change” are too pair of shoes and that humans cannot affect the climate at all.

And while that sounds quite stupid (especially with no sources to his statements and with no PhD in bullshittery), it got better when he said that the German government is trying to control the population by lying about the pandemic and creating fake news (“Lügenpresse” is the German word for it and it’s generally considered nazi-jargon but “fake news” is the correct translation for it) to keep “rebels” and citizens in check.

I would have expected that he’d ramble about his lord and saviour on the dark side of the moon but the discussion didn’t get that far as I reported his remarks on “jews controlling the refugees and other things to get rid of the German race” for hate speech.

Today’s lesson:
Don’t play chess with a pigeon. It’s gonna throw away all the pieces, then shit on the board and walk of triumphantly.

Apart from that a whole bunch of students at my university are still waiting for the passwords to the online-classes they are about to take. A bunch of people are being really annoying by asking the same questions in one of our WhatsApp groups.

I feel like a bunch of them are just wanting to reassure themselves but when the same people are asking the same questions and getting, again, the same answers. They either want attention or are getting bored while on lockdown. If the password for a class isn’t online already, then it will be put online at a later date. Just point 1 and 1 together, and you’ll get your answer. Or scroll up in the chat.

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Regardless of that, the quote about the pigeon applies here, too. I got labelled as a someone who’s unfriendly and they ended up “roasting” me with a very lame response… So I didn’t answer to that anymore. Yikes.

And again, I don’t need to take part in conversations and I can surely just ignore chat messages or leave groups like that but when people speculate that the system’s not working or when people are throwing out fake news about the semester getting cancelled and other stuff without “definite prove” as in “the password still isn’t online” (despite the semester not having started yet)… I don’t know. There’s something in me that just kind of has to tell them off.

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I just have to tell them not to do that as they are clearly seeking attention and as they are clearly trying to confuse others by spreading false information, especially when there are freshmen in the group that aren’t well-informed yet. And in the end, they shat on the board and felt triumphant but I got my goal, too, as they are shutting up for now.

So that’s it for today’s post. People are being stupid right now. Don’t be stupid. Stay home. Stay safe. And don’t shit on other people’s chessboard.


This post is part of a challenge called BLAPRIL. The goal is to post as much as possible during the 30 days of April. There are different themes during some of the weeks and a lot of mentors, newbies and participants participating. Feel free to check this hub-post out and check out the other participants!