TSS#72 – Blaugust Prompt #6 – My favourite quote(s)

What is my favourite Quote and why? Who the fuck is Todd Howards anyways? Why the fuck do I need to drag philosophy into this? These questions and possibly others in today’s post!

“Today” is Wilhelm’s turn to hold the Blaugust baton and host “today”‘s prompt for the Blaugust Promptapalooza! “Today” is in quotation marks since I’m actually in the future and will just move these posts back to the past once I’ve caught up with the posts… Life’s a bit messy with my studies and everything. That’s why I’m kind of hitting my limits here on the blogging front… ugh, I’m looking forward to when the last exam is over! 

Today’s prompt is “What is your favourite quote/s, and why?”

Over the past few years, I’ve had a ton of different quotes that I really liked. Here are a few of my favourites followed by my favourite quote at the end! + a bonus quote by Todd Howards!

“Der einzige Mann, der wirklich nicht ohne Frauen leben kann, ist der Frauenarzt”

Arthur Schopenhauer

This roughly translates to “The only man that is not able to live without women is the gynaecologist”. Arthur Schopenhauer was a German philosopher that lived from 1788 to 1860 and who believed/taught that our world is based on an irrationality… I could go into what that means and if I agree BUT I think that would be rather boring. 

It’s short and somewhat witty, I guess? I feel like that’s important for quotable stuff. The categorical imperative by Kant is way too wordy and way too long for people to not die of boredom while listening to someone quoting it. This quote up there? Just long enough. I wouldn’t say that it’s my favourite quote but regardless of that, it’s still lovely. 

“If you tell the truth, you don’t have to remember anything.”

Mark Twain

This one’s another witty and short one. Easily to remember. Easy to live by. Just tell the truth and nothing but the truth. You don’t have to remember the lies that you thought of and you won’t get bitten in the back by the lies that you jumbled up. Lies can be messy and I usually try to be as honest as possible. Obviously, there are white lies and other instances where you can’t exactly tell the truth… Half-truths probably are worse than lies in my opinion, especially as you knowingly try to manipulate and potentially even gaslight others. Alas, I just try to stick to the truth as much as possible as that’s the easiest way to deal with all kinds of situations.

“Just because she likes the same bizarro crap you do doesn’t mean she’s your soul mate.”

Rachel Hansen (played by Chloë Grace Moretz)

This one’s out of (500) Days of Summer. As previously mentioned, it’s my favourite movie and I love that movie to bits even if it has got its issues here and there. In the movie, there is a scene where Tom Hansen (played by Joseph Gordon-Levitt) is playing some Wii game with his sister Rachel while talking about Summer Finn (played by Zooey Deschanel), the girl that he’s in love with. He’s just head over heels over her… and Rachel says that which I found quite fitting for a lot of things in life. Just because “everything fits”, that doesn’t have to mean that the person of interest is “the one”. In the past, I’ve met (and fallen for) someone who had exactly the same interests as me. 

Be it movies, bands and other hobbies, we were near to identical on an interest-level – on top of that, I was able to talk to her for hours without any issues at all or awkward silence or whatever. BUT then I watched this movie for the 17th time (at that time… right now we’re at 21 times) and noticed… just because we like the same crap, that doesn’t mean that we should get married and get kids and die together and whatever. It just means that we’d make great friends. Alas, I calmed down and we became friends, which I’m more than happy about, to be honest. It would have gotten so bad if we would have ended up together… Hence, this quote is a bit of a lifesaver in a way? I feel like it’s something that people should keep in mind sometimes. Oh well. 

At last, my favourite quote:

“The pain I feel now is the happiness I had before.”

C.S. Lewis

C.S. Lewis is a giant in the literary world. I loved “The Great Divorce” but Lewis is probably more well-known for the “Narnia Chronicles”, which I actually haven’t read at all. Either way, this is my favourite quote. I don’t know where it is from but I stumbled across it in “Getting Over It with Bennett Foddy” and I loved it immediately.

While, again, short and witty, it summarizes what I’d call the “essence of life” in just eleven words. And it does it well. After every joyful moment, there is this down-phase that you feel. After happiness comes pain and after the climax comes the catastrophe. I’m speaking of plays, naturally. No horny writing here. After every good bender, you get that huge hangover. After every happy and sunny day comes a rainy one. But while that sounds very pessimistic, I feel like it’s quite optimistic and hopeful. 

In essence, it’s not limited to this direction but also to the opposite one. After you’ve hit rock-bottom, you won’t steep lower: It’s only going up. After every down-phase you have, you’ll get better. Eventually. Everything will be okay. Everything will work out. 

At this point, I’d like to elaborate with another quote that I highly adore (aka a bonus entry!):

“It just works.”

Todd Howards

It just works… or rather it just works out. In the end, all is well that ends well and all that is happening will get better. Hope is never lost and when you feel pain right now, you’ll feel happiness afterwards. It can’t get worse than this right? 2020 – and I don’t want to jinx anything here – can’t possibly get worse than this, right? Well, I guess it can… but it’s not going to be the end of the world (oh boy, I’m jinxing what should have happened in 2012). It’s gonna work out. It just works.

Obviously, that’s not my favourite but it’s quite applicable to all kinds of things in life. Just like how Skyrim “just works”, life also “just works”. It will be alright. It will work out. No worries, keep your head up, move on. Move forward. “Keep calm and drink tea” or something like that. 

“The pain I feel now is the happiness I felt before” is something that got me through a bunch of times where I wasn’t sure how to deal with anything in my life. My father got sick or rather worse when I just moved away. My studies didn’t go well but I didn’t want to worry my parents. I ended up not knowing what to do next. Similarly, I’ve had some very bad breakups in the past and didn’t know what to do about it. And then I started playing Getting Over It and encountered that quote and it all made sense. It all “just works”. It really did. 

Without the happiness that I felt before, I wouldn’t have gotten hurt. If I didn’t meet her, I wouldn’t have felt that pain. At the same time though, because I suffered at that point in time, I was able to be happy again afterwards. Without ever feeling down or upset or sad… without being depressed or anxious… you can’t really be truly happy, right? Without ever getting hurt, you can’t say that you actually lived, right? 

I feel like that’s important in life in general. The pain you feel now is the happiness you felt before. I love it. The pain you feel now will be the happiness you feel soon. 

And I guess that’s where I end this post. I really enjoyed this prompt. It turned out longer than I thought it would but that’s no biggie, I’d say. Check out Wilhelm’s original post over here… and, well, The Friendly Necromancer is the next one in line for the Blaugust baton! So check them out as well! 🙂 

Cheers!

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

TSS#71 – Blaugust Prompt #5 – Rituals?

This brings me back a bit but I actually talked about today’s prompt before when I just started blogging and when I entered Blaugust for the first time last year. It feels like ages but it’s only been a year since I wrote about this. Today’s prompt is the following: 

Everyone has specific rituals that they follow, tell us about one of yours.

The post that everwake is hosting over here is quite similar to an older post over here. Rituals… there are a bunch that I actually follow. 

For instance, I used to do Kendo, Iaido and Iodo for three years a while back and in our Dojo (or potentially all Dojos?) we had to do a small bow whenever we entered the room in the direction of the corner that is the farthest from the door. Essentially, you’re bowing to the “Elders” in spirit that have trained there before you. I’m not training any sword-fighting anymore but I am still doing that whenever I enter halls… probably out of habit. I mean, I don’t do a full-on bow (90°) but rather just a tiny one… like a nod, I guess? 

One of my rituals also includes watching my plants in Viridi grow!

I feel like that ritual is more of a habit, but despite that, I still follow it. I don’t try to get rid of that habit. I rather go with it since it doesn’t harm me and also doesn’t require too much energy to do. It’s mostly subconscious and just every now and then someone points it out, asking why I did that. Rarely do I ever notice myself doing it but honestly, I wouldn’t care. If there are “spirits” or “ghosts” of the people that trained there before you, I’d like to pay them respects. Imagine angering them or being rude towards them while using the same halls as them. That’d suck.

And if we stay on the topic of sports, I actually used to play Volleyball. I wasn’t really good at all that much apart from the front positions due… but I was nearly excellent at the service. I’d be able to land six or seven points in a row due to me landing the ball exactly on the backline so that people would think that’s it out of the field… but it’s actually still in there. 

To get those points and to be able to service that well, I followed a stupid ritual of me dribbling the ball three times in specific spots before then holding up the ball in front of me and then just slamming it away. My service was good but I sucked at everything else, so naturally, I’d try to get as many points out of my service as possible to make up for my lacking skill… and it worked. Those stupid rituals annoyed everyone but it really helped me do well. 

And when it comes to blogging, I tend to get some coffee in the morning or make some tea during at later hour before writing. I tend to forget about my tea/coffee during the writing process but I like the smell while writing and I made it a habit of mine to drink it beforehand… cold coffee is alright… but nothing goes against some hot coffee in the morning, y’know?

I noticed that I tend to make herbal teas for when I write reviews and fruit teas for when I write Stray Sheep. I love Camomile tea, for instance! Or some mint tea… I have nice liquorice root and mint flavoured tea over here that tastes really well and is able to make my day no matter what’s going on outside… of course, green and black teas are also awesome! For my birthday, I received some nice Oolong and Jasmine tea here, though I tend to get a whole can of that stuff usually.

Plants are cute!

I don’t usually believe in superstition or rituals like that but I tend to follow a lot of them. I probably am following a bunch of rituals and routines without even noticing them. Another stupid one would be that I always spit three times when I brush my teeth. I don’t know why but more or less than that just feel weird… and maybe my OCD just gets triggered when I do it four times or two times… 

And well, definitions are also a thing. Some of these “rituals” could actually just be habits. To begin with, is something really a routine or a habit if you’re not doing it with the intention of doing it? If you’re subconsciously taking a bow before entering a hall, is that really a ritual or maybe just some habit? 

In the end, it doesn’t matter though. Routines help you organize and structurize tasks and schedules. Without them, a lot of things would suck a bunch more… Without routines, you forget important steps. Without rituals, you may not get motivated enough to write up a post or get some work done, for instance. Without some of these habits, you wouldn’t be as successful, I reckon! 

Routines are nice and I like that I have some in my life. The same goes of course for rituals, superstition, and habits – subconscious or conscious doesn’t matter in that regard. Of course, there are bad habits but I’m getting rid of those slowly over time, I’d say. 

Read everwake’s post over here and check out Wilhelm from The Ancient Gaming Noob over here as he’s hosting the next prompt!

Cheers!

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

TSS#69 – Blaugust Prompt #3 – Media shapes your worldview?

Blaugust Day 3 is here, and I’m late since I struggled with putting my thoughts into words.

“What are some key sources of media (games/movies/etc.) that have shaped your worldview?”

I do not like this prompt. 

My worldview is based on all the experiences that I accumulated over the course of the last 21 years of my life. 13 years out of those 21 consisted of me getting bullied and harassed in school. Those years really shaped me and made me the person that I am today. Some of the issues that I amassed during that time still haunt me to this day and only recently I got told that certain people have been gaslighting me… even though I thought that they were helping. Toxic and abusive relationships I had in the past, still haunt me to this day as I still struggle with my self-esteem and how I view myself. 

Alas, I feel like I’m a bad person to talk about how things shape you and how your worldview changes over time because of media. I noticed that a lot of bad people have made me feel bad and alas my worldview ended up being the whole “love and let love, live and let live” thingy that I’m going for and I feel like it works… somewhat? 

I guess I could elaborate on this but my last few attempts of elaborating have gone horribly wrong and I don’t want to make people worry or anything like that, so I just won’t… instead, we’ve got some screenshots here from my journey in DS3 that should tie quite well into Roger’s post since he also talks about different kinds of posts and since screenshots are always fun, right?  

The next post in line is by Mr Peril. Check out Mailvaltar’s post again if you haven’t already!

Cheers!

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

TSS#68 – Blaugust Prompt #2 – Unpopular Opinions

“What is some popular piece of content/media that seems to be universally loved that you have never been able to understand?” – That’s today’s prompt, “hosted” by @Dragonray over at AzerothianLife.

In their post, Dragon actually talked about Game of Thrones and I completely agree with her views. I personally only have watched the first 5.5 seasons and ever since I had my own red wedding over here after a little knife accident at home (a year ago), I couldn’t watch the show anymore. Jokingly I’d say that it may be some sort of PTSD since the scar on my hand hurts whenever I start up GoT again… I highly recommend checking out Dragonray’s post! While I personally like some parts of the show (Arya’s, Danaerys’, and John’s (particularly the wildling arc) parts were lovely so far), I hate a lot of other parts with the glorified rape and assault and discrimination against all sorts of people. 

I feel like the show is trying to go for shock moments to reel in more views. It’s trying to get controversial to essentially make more money since bad PR is good PR. In that regard, I hate it. While you may say that it’s an adaptation and that the source material is at fault… I’d disagree since at some point the show got very loose from the books (and honestly, I haven’t read them and I doubt I ever will). Going for shock moments for the sake of being edgy is just stupid. It’s like the racism and discrimination in Beat Cop, a game that I criticized a lot. It’s there to be edgy or to cater to some people’s tastes. People want to get to know and want to love some of the characters – and people love it when those people get killed off. Of course, they hate it… but they get caught off-guard and like it then, I guess? 

And then there is Sex for instance. Everyone likes sex – apart from people that don’t… but quite often, it’s just there without having to be there. Due to the budget being low at one point, the creators didn’t actually show one of the battles since they couldn’t afford all the soldiers and animations and stuff… instead, they used “the messenger’s report”. I may make a post about this (and more drama theory in the future) but it essentially is a technique to show something without actually showing it. Someone just reports on what happened somewhere – or someone’s standing on a wall and is reporting what he’s seeing over there. In the viewers’/audience’s head, the battle is very vivid and brutal when in fact, nothing has been shown. In GoT they do this relatively early (one of the first two seasons?) while this one person is having sex with a prostitute. So they saved money and showed people sex so that they don’t get bored. 

I’m ashamed to admit that this picture took me way too long as I was trying to figure out how to edit the baby yoda so that the lighting works better but I just couldn’t get it done with my paint.net skills, so I ended up just leaving it like this. The Baby Yoda means haven’t stopped. This is only the beginning. (Just kidding, this is the first and the last baby yoda meme that I probably will ever make)

While I’m not against sex, I don’t like the fact that it’s present in the show at nearly all times. Even when the mob is coming for the royals, the creators have to add in rape or attempted rape to make it more extreme… While I applaud the use of the messenger’s report in that earlier example, I condemn the latter as it’s just horny writing at best. People living their fantasies. Incest, Rape, Assault, Violence against women, a crossbow pointed at a prostitute while she’s getting fucked. That kind of thing. 

Thus, I didn’t really get why people love it so much without condemning the moral aspects of it. 

Note: The GoT opening theme is stuck in my head now. Help.

But this post is not at its end here (as you can see for yourself)… I didn’t really want to just post about my views being really similar to Dragonray’s regarding GoT and thus, I thought I’d talk about an unpopular opinion of mine, so watch out, trigger warning ahead…

I don’t like Star Wars…

I don’t really get the universe and while I watched a lot of the movies it all just felt not that good to me… I don’t like a lot of the characters and plotlines… the best part of the show may be the part where that one stormtrooper (or clone warrior? soldier? whatever?) bonks his head against that ceiling pipe. 

I’m referring to the first six movies by the way – I haven’t ever thought of watching the newer movies… I just don’t like the universe I guess? I like Sci-Fi… Star Trek was actually quite cool. Star Gate was also quite alright. The Last Generation is a wonderful story. Robot Dreams – really nice! Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep? – absolutely awesome! Star Wars – not so much… it’s technically Science-Fantasy but that’s only because of the Jedi-Magic and stuff and the setting in the past… 

And this might tie into the post about fandoms and stuff but people get really defensive about Star Wars. “yOU DoN’t LiKE S T A R W A R S?! HOw coULD YOu?!” followed by some insults. I don’t know. People are weird. Don’t hate me please because of me not liking your favourite movie. We can still watch it together but I’ll probably fall asleep. You can hate on all the Tim Burton movies I enjoy… You can hate on Corpse Bride and 9 and Frankenweenie. You can hate on my absolute favourite movie, (500) Days of Summer and insult me about how the score isn’t that incredible or how the female lead character, Summer Finn (played by Zooey Deschanel), is a Manic Pixie Dream Girl. I still like the movie. And even if I find Star Wars boring, you can still enjoy it and talk about it as I love it when people are passionate about their interests, just like I love my stuff.

So, there’s my second Blaugust post. I hope you enjoyed it. I linked it above but here’s Dragonray’s post again. Highly recommend! Tomorrow’s prompt will be presented to you by Mailvaltar, so check them out! 🙂 

Cheers!

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

TSS#67 – Blaugust Prompt #1 – Fandoms

Blaugust is here! I mean, August is here! 

Alas, here’s the first prompt by Belghast: “If you could change anything about one of your core fandoms, what would it be?” – and I’m already confused. My issue with this one is that I don’t think I’m part of really any fandom… at least I’m no active member of any bigger communities of fans of a genre, game, show, band, etc. But I’ll do my best to answer this prompt!

I guess that I’m a relatively big fan of Anime and Manga. I do read my fair share and watch quite a bunch right now. The only problem with the fandom I have, though, is the weebs. And I’m not trying to be inappropriate but usually, there is a “too far” for everything: 

Chocolate can be sweet but it can also be “too bitter”. You can drink a bunch of beers but you can also take it “too far” and get alcohol poisoning. 

I binged Kokkoku, the other day, btw – and I can highly recommend it!

With the anime fandom, it’s the same. 

According to Proxer.me (my streaming service of choice for ages now), I’ve watched a total of 5134 Anime episodes so far, not counting in episodes watch on other sites. As far as Manga chapters go, the number is at 811, not counting in chapters, manhwa, webtoons, light novels, etc. read on other sites. 

But I know people with bigger and smaller numbers that are way too extreme in regards to the fandom. I’m talking about people that don’t just watch anime… I’m talking about people that breathe anime. -> Weebs or weaboos. 

And well, the thing I’d change about them is just the fact that I don’t want them to call me an “otaku” or a “fellow weeb” because that’s insulting. That’s it. I have no problem with them being the way they are. I have no problem with them loving what they do. I just don’t like it when some of them try to convince others that those other people are also “otakus” (which is an insult if I remember correctly, to begin with). 

I really gotta finish this show up eventually… but I also am watching way too many other shows…

As far as other fandoms go, I used to be part of the Dr Who fandom and a few communities but then the constant discussions about “the best Doctor” and the diehard fans that don’t like a female doctor got on my nerves. Christopher Eccleston (or the Ninth Doctor) is probably my favourite but I’d never go as far as to go that he’s “the best doctor” since there is no universal truth like that. Matt Smith? David Tennant? Peter Capaldi? All great doctors! Loved them! I would not want to convince others, however, that these people are “the best” over others.

Uh, other fandoms… I’m a support main in League of Legends and since I love playing the role, I’d consider that a fandom of sorts, I guess? Anyways, I’d change the Janna Mains. I fucking hate them. It’s not about their champs… it’s also not about ALL of them… it’s just about the toxic ones because Janna Mains are the most fucking obnoxious and toxic support players in League. Janna is a champion that doesn’t require too much skill and that is really well at disengaging enemies and enabling their ADC. While I like playing her every now and then, I don’t usually do it nowadays, as she’s still missing a bunch of things that I like with other enchanters. She’s also just a champion played by toxic people that I don’t want to get associated with. Same goes for Nami Mains that build Rylai’s Crystal Scepter. Don’t. Fucking. Do. That. For reals. Your Q is a knock-up, your E is a slow already and your ultimate is a knock-up as well. You don’t really need the slow, especially as slows don’t stack in League. 

Btw, this is probably my favourite Janna skin. Way too adorable!

But in the end, I’m just complaining about extremes here. I feel like every fandom and every community has certain “Stans” and “extreme fans” that just take things too far or trolls and idiots that just act in bad faith, as everwake pointed out as well. I feel like there is always one shitty person for every ten good people, period. Not just in fandoms. Of course, there are also people that just try to diehard defend their own object of interest while degrading, as Bel noted, and I’d include those parts of these fandoms in the “shitty person” analogy as well.

I don’t think that you can change people that easily but I feel like people shouldn’t just look at the negative side of these fandoms but also the positive side with all the creators, cosplayers, artists, writers, bloggers, authors, theorists, analysts, etc. that provide us all with a bunch of awesome things

But I don’t really consider myself a part of any fandom… I mean, of course, I’m a fan of a bunch of things but I don’t usually interact with too many “likeminded” people apart from the Blaugustans or people in different discord and twitch communities. And regarding the “Blaugust Fandom”, I don’t really know what I’d change if at all. 🙂

So that was my take on the first prompt. You can find “the original post” here, made by Bel. Tomorrow’s prompt is being presented by Dragonray from Azerothian Life who (from what I could tell) is a blogger who is mostly writing about their adventures in World of Warcraft. Bel also talked highly of them, so I’m looking forward to browsing some more on that blog, despite not actually playing WoW. 🙂

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

TSS#66 – Blaugust, Cats, and Drafts

Welcome to another Stray Sheep. Today I’ll talk about the upcoming Blaugust event, my participation in that, and other things. I hope you enjoy this post! 

Let’s get right into it: It’s nearly August and therefore it’s time for Blaugust. But since we already participated in Blapril just a few months ago, Bel thought of something else to switch things up and combat a few issues. 

Edit: Since this might be important to a lot of people, I added the “when and where” part here at the beginning so that people can easily find out about it.

The list of blogs currently participating, and the dates of their posts are:

As you can see, I’m right up there relatively late, on the 23rd of August with a post but, honestly, I’ll probably try to post about all prompts regardless as it’s more fun that way – and I’ll link to the “host” for the prompt as well as the next “host” in line. 🙂 Looking forward to it!

The main concern about Blaugust – as far as I understood it – that some people had was that the “competition”-style might actually not help people revitalize their or other blogs. Posting 31 daily posts can be quite stressful depending on your schedule and alas it can get quite annoying to fulfil the quota, prepare blog posts, edit them in time, find screenshots, and do all of that within one month to get some badge for your blog in the end. The badge may be the cause for this “stress” that people put themselves through… and obviously, it was debatable. I personally love the 31 posts on 31 days idea for the Challenge-part and obviously, I love showing off that badge-png on my blog… but I also was never in this “I need to post more than others!” mindset but rather was thinking in that “how far can I push certain limits?” pattern. 

During Blaugust19, I posted 31 posts in 31 days and saw that I could actually reduce the time to write reviews considerably while also having more success with it by writing shorter reviews (about 1k words instead of 3-4k) where I don’t explain the game (and possibly spoil it) to my readers but instead talk about what I like and don’t like and removing everything that doesn’t add value. During Blapril20, I ended up posting 45 posts. I sadly got busier at the end of it, so I couldn’t go for the originally planned 69 posts (that exact number because I’m still a child in my head).

And if the original Blaugust idea would have happened this month, I probably would have aimed for 31+ posts again… but something has changed. Bel is trying out something new which might be more fun and we’ll just see how it’s perceived and if it works out in the end in the way that it was intended to be. Mostly, since Blapril already happened this year, though, because of the concerns above and since some people might not be willing to do “another Blaugust-type event”. Alas, we’re trying out this.

Alas, I’m announcing my participation in the Blaugust Promtapalooza – a blog “tour” of sorts where someone posts a blog post, followed by a prompt for the next day, linking to the next blog in line. That blog then writes about the prompt that the previous blog announced and then announces the prompt for the next day, along with the link to the next blog, resulting in essentially a “blog crawl” where you can make your way through 31 blogs that wanted to participate this year. Of course, you don’t have to follow these blog prompts and of course, you don’t have to read them all or write daily… but regardless of that, I’m looking forward to it, again challenging certain limitations I have and hopefully making it through the end. 

On top of that, I was hoping to keep up with most of the blogs participating this year and reading through a bunch of them every day while shouting some of them out in a blog post at the end of the week. “This is what I’ve read this week, this is why I liked these so much. Check them out!” or something like that… I’ll still have to work on the draft-idea that I had in mind but I think that might be quite cool as some extra posts… 

And then there’s also going to be the normal posts that I would have posted anyways, regardless of Blaugust or whatever. For instance, I’ve been working on one huge post about my blog’s one-year-anniversary… for three or four days now, my blog has existed for a year… so that’s really cool… and I wanted to celebrate that with some stats and my favourite posts and that kind of stuff. I feel like that might be really cool but I also am still working on it and will hopefully get it out soon. 

There will be posts about games that have come out and that are still coming out. I have three or four interviews planned but didn’t get to write the questions just yet. It’s been a bit iffy time-wise over here, especially as my sleep schedule is quite messy at the moment (again), although I’ve managed to sleep this night for the second night in a row!

Jin and Tammy are cute as always! (Btw, my palico in MHW is named after Tammy over here!)

Apart from that, I’m taking care of cats right now. My best friend and her boyfriend are not in town right now so I need to take care of them from Tuesday until Saturday (Today is Thursday! Hello, future!), which mostly means feeding them and playing/cuddling with them since they’re very social – and I also need to watch over them so that they don’t do stupid things. It’s been quite cool so far and I really am enjoying my time with them… but as far as working on blog posts go, it’s a bit tough to do that when they want to get your attention by walking over your laptop and stuff… alas, I stopped that for the entirety of yesterday… and I’ve got to stop it today, too, I think, as they are way too cute to be ignored… maybe I’ll get productive again when they are napping later on… 

But once I get some more time to write as well as some new pictures of them, I’ll post some cute ones (got the permission from my best friend!) including some interesting ideas regarding stupid thoughts I came up with while playing with the cats. I think you might like that. 

And well, apart from that not much else has happened. I’m done with some of my exams. Ms Magi and I have been together for 13 months already. I’ve been really lucky to have met her. It’s a bit insane that my blog is only a month older than my current relationship. I just kind of feel like I’ve been blogging for ages now and that I’ve learned a bunch and got to know a lot of people. I guess all these thoughts could go into a separate blog post as well.

At last, there’s also the To The Moon Minisodes that I played actually… but I didn’t get to write a post about them just yet… and since I’ve been late already, I thought “why not wait a bit more and play games that I actually enjoy?”, so I did and alas, I’ll have to write a post about my recent Monster Hunter World endeavours, I’ve got some reviews and interviews in the drafts, I’ve been meaning to talk about Dark Souls 3 since I’ve been playing that on Stream, I’ve just finished Outer Wilds and wanted to review that… and then there is the Mystery Blogger Award that Megan tagged me in… and a ton more drafts sitting around!

As you can see there are a whole bunch of ideas in the work and I’ll try to get through those within the next few weeks! 

I hope you enjoyed this post. I’ve been up to a lot. Lately, I’ve been posting less but it’s mostly due to exams. Hopefully, that will change now!

Cheers!

This post is part of the Blaugust 2020 event. Wanna know more about it? Then check out my post on it or Bel’s post where he also linked everyone who’s participating! Be sure to check out the others as well!

TSS#65 – My Shaky Moral High Ground

In the past, I’ve talked about my core beliefs and ideals already. It has lead to the decision to not review Heartbeat, for instance, because I wouldn’t want to review and promote a game that is made by people actively harming others…

But as time went on, I noticed that my thinking may be flawed. It’s causing me a headache again because that’s a moral standard or an opinion rather that I can’t really hold that easily. If I don’t support this Indie Studio because there is one dev that is a terf, that’s one thing… but why do I stop there? 

I still regularly play League of Legends because I love the game and the champions in there… but I know that Riot Games (and Tencent) are full of a lot of issues like sexual harassment, discrimination, toxic masculinity, and a lot of other things. There are a lot of things going wrong at Riot Games and there are more and more stories coming out about the behind the scenes stuff right there. One of the higher-ups saying that “no doesn’t always mean no” (linking one of the many articles I found but if you want to dig into the topic, sure, go ahead and you’ll find plenty more dirt without digging too deep) is not at all in line with what I believe in… and yet, I’m not boycotting Riot Games. I’m not spending any money on League of Legends, TFT, Legends of Runeterra, Valorant, or anything else… but I’m still playing these games and even writing about it here and there… and that’s a contradiction, isn’t it? 

The gaming industry is full of cases like that. There are plenty of shitbags in the Industry and plenty of companies and dev studios and publishers that are full of shit – but I love video games and alas, am still playing games and writing about it… and my moral high ground of not wanting to support the TERF and her girlfriend who worked on Heartbeat or not wanting to support the homophobic Brazilian Muslim that reached out for a video game review but ended up trying to convince me that I’m sinning for being bi and coming out like that… well, that moral high ground is shaky. I can’t stand on it. I can’t just go ahead and ignore review requests from studios that I know are bad… and go ahead and play games by people that are equally full of shit. 

I love the games published by Chucklefish Ltd. – But even they have mud on their shirt with them not paying some devs or whatever (haven’t really dug too much into that). 

And well, there’s also Blizzard, Activision, Ubisoft, Valve, and a lot of other bigger companies that are equally full of shit than the ones I mentioned before. But I still play their games, which is shitty and hypocritical in a way. In the long run, I won’t be able to hold up that moral high ground of mine where I don’t talk about some games but still support other games that I personally like but who are made by equally bad people. 

Uh, lots of (not exactly) Ivory Towers and uh, a High Ground… I guess?

And as previously mentioned, stuff like that gives me headaches. I’m in a conflict with my own beliefs of what’s right and wrong. I get migraines at the worst possible time and I end up questioning whether or not I should maybe write a review of Heartbeat. 

I mean, even TERFs quite often have a reason for being the way they are. If you’ve been traumatized by men in the past, you probably don’t feel that safe around anyone who’s been a male before or who still is a male – especially in “safe spaces”. At the same time, I still disagree with them and I do feel like there are better ways of handling things. Insulting and discriminating against trans-women isn’t at all what I want to defend here… but at the same time, I can’t say that I know their stories. I don’t know whether or not, I can just shit on terfs without ever really knowing what they’ve been through – and I doubt that I can get in that mindset either since I’m just a male myself. 

It’s a tricky subject and while I will not support that dev who tried to “make me hetero” because he personally harmed me, I may consider actually writing a post about Heartbeat… as a game… made by people that cared about the game. People that actually are inclusive. People that spread love and make games for the sake of bringing joy to people of all kinds. People that created something that taught me a lot about self-love and loving others despite our differences. In the core, Heartbeat is a great game that I really recommend. My stance on that one dev doesn’t change necessarily. That one dev isn’t part of the studio anymore. Everyone in the studio distanced themselves from that one dev or left the studio. 

A lot of the things that that one dev did to harm others are unforgivable. The way they handled things shouldn’t be able to get excused purely by trauma. I don’t think violence solves violence – physical or verbal doesn’t matter in that regard. I don’t think it’s fair for me to judge someone from this ivory tower that I’m sitting in. I mean, if someone actively harmed me or my friends or anyone in my community, I wouldn’t want to support them. 

The Gaming Industry might as well be as rotten as the Curse-rotted Greatwood! idk, it’s just a picture, move on.

My ideals don’t change. My ideals are the same as before. Transwomen are women. Transmen are men. Trans rights are human rights. For every bad person, there are ten good people in the world. Love and let love, live and let live. I’m still trying to be my best possible self and I want to grow as a person and I feel like taking a look at these stances that I took in the past and that I’ve been thinking about for the past couple of months already is only natural and actually quite important. You can’t always stick to one opinion unless you’re really stubborn. 

So what I’m trying to say is that I still don’t know if I can hold that moral high ground up. I doubt it. I’m still against people that cause other people harm and I still want to improve and become a better human being. My ideals and principles haven’t changed at all… but I can’t act as if that one small Indie Studio is the worst part of the Gaming Industry when it’s really just one dev there… and I can’t just ignore all the other parts of the Gaming Industry. Instead, I feel like it’s a lot easier to put up a disclaimer of sorts in a review. “The members of the studio distanced themselves from the lead dev (aka the terf) and I personally don’t like what the terf did but a lot of other people put their heart, sweat and blood into this game, so I’m still writing a review on this game. I hope you can understand” or something like that. 

I’m still torn about this. I still don’t know what to do about this. I’d love to hear a lot more opinions on the matter. If you’ve got one about it, please let me know. I’d be more than pleased to know. 

TSS#64 – Mystery Blogger Award

The Mystery Blogger Award is an award for amazing bloggers with ingenious posts. Their blog not only captivates; it inspires and motivates. They are one of the best out there, and they deserve every recognition they get. This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging, and they do it with so much love and passion.

Okoto Enigma

Rules:

  1. Put the award logo/image on your blog
  2. List the rules.
  3. Thank whoever nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
  4. Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well
  5. Tell your readers 3 things about yourself
  6. You have to nominate 10 – 20 people
  7. Notify your nominees by commenting on their blog
  8. Ask your nominees any 5 questions of your choice; with one weird or funny question (specify)
  9. Share a link to your best post(s)

So, first up, thanks to Frostilyte for the nomination. I appreciate it. 

If anyone doesn’t know Frosti, check him out. You won’t regret it. 

Well, now… uh… three things about me, I guess?

  1. Despite my young age, I get flattered when I get ID’d and I tend to get mad at younger people calling me “Sir”. It’s just weird. I don’t look that old, or do I? It may be due to my height (I’ll just count all of that as one fact) of 194cm but it’s still weird for youngsters to use the formal form of “you” or “sir” or whatever when speaking to me… and I’ll have to get used to it when I become a teacher, I guess?
  2. I prefer English over German. I don’t exactly know why but I read more in English than in German. My copy of the Necronomicon, for instance, was probably the oldest title that I’ve bought. I had to look up every fifth word or something at the beginning until I learned all the different synonyms for “horrendous” or “horrible”. Apart from Lovecraft’s short stories, I’m also a huge fan of Oscar Wilde’s “The Importance of Being Ernest”, which is one of his few socio-critical comedies… and well, as far as shows, movies and games go, I tend to have them turned to English as well instead of German as the dub quite often sounds better in English.
  3. I used to practice Kendo, Iaido and Iodo in my hometown. I’d show you my old gear, including pictures of me in my hakama, gi, and my armour as well as equipped with my shinai, bokken and my io… but I’ve sold them all to make space.
It’s pride month, so here’s a pride mage hat! Happy Pride Month!

Questions from Frostilyte:

1.) What has been the biggest change to your daily routine during the (coron)apocalypse?

Well, mostly, it’s the time at my PC that I’m trying to reduce. I’m turning blue light filters on more often and I try to go stretch and take a few steps on the balcony after every class to make sure that I get that Vitamine D going as well as all of that oxygen. I guess my gaming-habits have also decreased over the course of time since I basically spend so much time at the PC anyways nowadays with all of the online classes. Alas, that probably is the biggest change… but then again, there are also things like “reminding myself to bring my mask” when going out to buy groceries… or stuff like not wearing a shirt all the time… 

2.) What game are you most looking forward to?

That’s a hard question actually since there’re so many cool games coming out soon… Well, up there at the top would be the games by the devs that we interviewed in the past but also games like Eastward, Relic Hunters Legend, Boyfriend Dungeon, Haven, Metamorphosis, and Witchmarsh… but if I really had to pick one game that I’m looking forward to the most, it would be Drake Hollow by The Molasses Flood (the guys behind The Flame In The Flood). It’s something that I’ve been excited about for ages now. I’m following The Molasses Flood on Twitter, IG and other platforms for quite some time now and I’m in the process of preparing three posts of that specific game, so I guess it would be fair to say that I’m most excited about that game. 

3.) What’s the first you want to do when things go back to normal?

Punch Frosti for the covid-themed questions – just kidding, it was a different time back then… in May!

Uhm, I guess, go to university? I’m really looking forward to that and the cantine food, as well as going to the literature club meetings, and meeting everyone live… it’s been a while and it’s not the same over discord. I’m going to be able to hit the bars again with some friends… and I can go to the Sauna again, which is going to be fantastic! That’s going to be quite cool 😀 But then again apart from those things, there really aren’t all that many things that would change for me (apart from not needing a mask, of course). 

4.) What is your favourite type of fruit juice? 

I honestly don’t really drink all that much fruit juice. When I came back from my parents’ they also packed me up with a lot of orange juice and some other multi-vitamin-stuff… but I personally don’t like orange at all. I guess if I really had to pick one, I’d say Lychee. I love Lychee juice. I used to frequent this Asian bistro that had a bunch of Asian sodas and juices there, including rice-peach-juice and lychee juice – and well, I also like Lychees so I guess it makes sense that I’d like the juice. 

My second choice would be Mango or Strawberry juice, I think.

5.) What’s something you accomplished recently that you’re proud of?

Oh, well, first up, recently a site called Feedspot actually put up a list of the “Top 40 Indie Game Blogs and Websites for Indie Game Enthusiasts in 2020” and we got placed to the 11th spot there right between “indiegamereviewer.com” and “Indie Game Bundles”. Of course sites like itch.io, IndieGala, and the IndieGaming Reddit would be in the top 10 but I feel like it’s a huge accomplishment for someone like me to be up there in the top… uh… 12! And, well, by “someone like me” I mean someone with only a fraction of the followers that those other sides have! 

Alas, I’m really proud of that, I guess? I’ve been running this blog for almost a year now and it’s getting a lot of traffic these days, which is kind of frightening… but at the same time I really like the idea of actually having a voice when it comes to reviews and highlighting something that could be considered an “Indie Gem”. Obviously, I’m not posting Indie-only content… but I’m actually trying to work on more Indie-content these days as I really am enjoying the reviews and interviews and all of the research that I can do. 

Apart from that, we’ve hit 220 followers on Twitch, raised 140$ for the Trevor Project, unlocked the fourth emote slot (and we’re quite close to hitting the fifth one!) and we’re meeting new people all the time nowadays, which is a ton of fun! So, I guess I’m rather proud of that as well. 

Yup, this picture is resurfacing again! I love Tammy in this armour and screenshot, so naturally I’m going to use ‘er here!

Nominees:

When I thought of “blogs that not only captivate but also inspire and motivate”, I thought of a few… but since I can’t mention ALL of them and since I’m limited to “only 10-20”, I thought I’d go with these here. 🙂 

Mr Peril – Contains Moderate Peril 

It’s always a pleasure to talk to Peril and every single one of his posts is great and features at least five words that I have to google (again, remember, English is my third language). It’s great to read one of his posts and I’d recommend his blog to anyone interested in movie reviews, gaming-related content or comments on society and different issues. 

Naithin – Time To Loot

Naithin not only organises a lot of different events and collaboration opportunities for other bloggers (like the “To The Moon”-Play-Along or the Civ-Succession-Games) but also is a trendsetter when it comes to “Challenges” and is able to write a variety of different types of posts that I really am enjoying to read. I’ve only known Nait for a year now but I really have come to enjoy my time talking to him every now and then and it’s also a pleasure to be around him. Hell, he even showed Asheron’s Call to me – and the posts on that are among the most viewed on my blog right now!

Photo by Flickr on Pexels.com

TWRM – The Well-Red Mage

I guess this one could be counted as “cheating” as TWRM features a lot of guest-posts on their site. There are plenty of posts there by bloggers that I’d like to nominate but never get the chance to and essentially they all get to be mages on there. I could recommend any of the posts there and I’m sure there’s something for everyone on there! And TWRM himself also organizes events for all kinds of people like the Super Mario Multiverse event that happened on the 10th of March (Mar10 Day) and alas, I guess that’s quite inspiring and awesome! 

Jeff Brutlag – jeffbrutlag.com 

Jeff is a lovely streamer and blogger who is always worth checking out, I’d say. If you’re not into reading, check him out on Twitch and say hello. His community is nice and he is a really cool guy and reading some of his stuff really helped me with my coming-out (Oh, right, I’m bi!) and all of that. His streams are super wholesome and I love lurking in there every now and then while enjoying the sheer positivity coming from this beautiful man and his viewers!

His blog features a lot of LGBTQIA+ content but isn’t limited to that. There are also a lot of posts on other topics such as Twitch or NaNoWriMo or RL-stuff, so basically he’s a jack of all trades with a plethora of content to check out!

Quietschistopheles – RNG

Quietschisto from RNG is another German fellow writing English reviews on a blog. He’s quite cool to play games with and he, Frosti and I did a collaboration on Ring of Pain in the past. We also talked a bit here and there about drinking and sleeping and uh…

Quietschisto is an interesting guy which you can see on his blog as well. Not only does he have a plethora of posts on Assassin’s Creed and other games up but he also writes reviews (similar to Frosti and I) while also talking about cocktails and drinks and stuff, which is quite fun. I really recommend checking Quietschisto out if you’re a fan of any of that! 

Yup, this is from Dark Souls 3. Yup, I’m playing it right now. Yup, I’m dying a lot. 🙂

Lucius P. Merriweather – A Most Agreeable Time

Lucius over here was one of the first bloggers that I followed on WordPress after starting my blog that was NOT from Blaugust. So, that makes him special, I guess. Kind of at least… just a little bit… 

Jokes aside, I really enjoy his reviews, although I haven’t really read a lot of blog posts in the past few days… but whenever I saw something by Lucius over here, I tried to tune in and see for myself what he has written up. I really enjoy his reviews as they feature a different style from the ones that I tend to write or read. Lucius’ posts are easy to get into and hard to let go of. Definitely worth checking out! 🙂

Kim and Pete – LaterLevels

Not only are they a wonderful couple and entertaining streamers but they also did provide some nice insights into the world of blogging when I just started out. Information like why comments are so important or what spacers do. Obviously, there are also posts on video games and, again, collaborations with other people like the Play-Along where Kim is also participating in or The Great Blog Crawl 2020, where I originally wanted to take part in… but that kind of fell under the table. Kim also has a great community going on on a discord called The Support Role, which I’d recommend checking out as well if you’re interested in seeing streamers or bloggers from all over the world or if you’re in need of help or advice. The Support Role can also be found on Twitch, so uh… check them out! 

Frostilyte – Frostilyte Writes

I’m not entirely sure if this is allowed but Frosti is cool and you should check him out. Despite me misgendering him at the beginning (it’s Naithin’s fault!), we’re getting along quite well… and as Theme-Brothers we obviously have to nominate each other. 😀 Right? 

Frosti also writes reviews but also other types of content as well as posts about Derpy Pokémon Drawings that he did… so, there’s that. If you like that,… follow him or something. 😛 

So pretty!

TGD – The Gaming Diaries

GD (I have no clue how to call ‘er) has a lovely format called Seriously Geeky Sundays that I enjoy reading… the fact that it says “Sundays” in the title probably helps with figuring out when the post will be up, which is probably why I’m able to read it so often. Her streams are quite fine to lurk in and she does have these really cool posts about the games she played in every month and well, different topics on Sundays. It’s been fun to read her, so check her out. 🙂

Krikket – NerdGirlThoughts

Another review-blogger (as I’d call ‘er) who posts about stuff other than reviews as well. I feel like I’m mentioning the same things over and over again. Krikket is lovely. Her taste in games is quite different from mine but I enjoy reading her posts, especially as she’s also part of the succession games that the Blaugustans have going on right now! I’d recommend checking her out. I like her posts. You should, too. lol.

As my tenth nominee (Frosti probably doesn’t count since he nominated me),…

Belghast – Tales of the Aggronaut

His cats are just adorable! He organises the lovely Blapril/Blaugust event and writes a ton of posts about all kinds of games from Destiny 2 to TemTem or whatever else is currently cool. I really enjoy reading his discussion-type posts as well as listening to his podcast and when I got to know the Blaugust-people he was the only blogger that I’ve actually heard of prior to joining the discord… so, adding him on steam and being able to talk to him was kind of huge for me back then. 😀 

So, yeah, these are my nominees. They are all quite captivating, inspiring and motivating! Really recommending all of them. Please check them out! 🙂

Both of my drawings… the Loan Shark and the Aheago-Rabbit battling it out! :O POG!

Uh, I need to share links to my “best posts”. Well,… this is going to be a tough one since I like a whole bunch of my posts a lot… 

Honestly, I hate this point. Screw that. If you really want to know my favourite, go to this link and search for it yourself!

And as far as posts go that are probably “up there” in the top-something, I’d probably go for my reviews on The Flame In The FloodRisk of Rain 1Omensight, or Moonlighter. I put a huge chunk of work into those posts but they’re horribly flawed with all kinds of typos and spelling errors in them. Some of them are also way too long… but despite their flaws, they’re still my posts, so I love them regardless of those flaws… I guess I can’t really decide on my favourites when I think about the total of over hundred posts that I did in the past year… so naturally, I just picked a few out of my reviews as I originally wanted to do reviews only… and while my newer reviews surely are a lot better than my old ones… I still like these ones a lot!

Questions from me for the nominees (if they want to answer them):

  1. What’s the weirdest combination of food items that you can think of that should not work… but actually does work really good?
  2. What’s the most important thing you’ve learned over the course of time in regards to Blogging and/or Streaming?
  3. You’re forced to swap out your country’s “leader” (party/politician/etc.) with a videogame antagonist (like Borderlands’ “Handsome Jack”). What antagonist do you choose and why exactly?
  4. What are the top 5 games on your wishlist and what’s the next thing you’ll get?
  5. Do you have a playlist/some playlists for different tasks in games like grinding or PvP, etc. and if so, can you share them with us and explain why you use them for those specific tasks? 

That’s it for this post. These Award/Nomination/Tag-type posts are always something else, so they take a bit longer to edit and write up and I need to come up with some interesting questions and overall… I hope that you enjoyed this one! If you want to answer these questions in a post as well, feel free to do that and link back to me so that I can check those answers out for myself! 🙂 Looking forward to seeing the nominees’ answers and questions and everything! 🙂 

Cheers!

TSS#63 – The current situation and my opinion, I guess

This is a shorter longer post and potentially a bit “heavier” than usual but this time around it’s about “our voice” and about politics in a way. It’s about my beliefs and my take on the matter and everything that is going on right now… and I’m telling all kinds of -ists and -phobes to fuck off. Despite being “heavier”, there will be no cat pictures in this post… or really any pictures at all. I’d say “enjoy” but I don’t think that this is all that joyful.

Welcome to another Stray Sheep!

Currently, as all of you probably are aware of, a whole bunch of things are happening over there in the United States of America and while we’re obviously not really affected by it too much here in Germany, it’s still quite worrisome. As a blogger or as a streamer or as really just anyone with a Twitter account, you’ve got a voice that “you’ve got to use” and while I understand that a lot of people don’t want to “politicize” their own opinion on social media or on their blogs, streams, etc., I also feel as if I cannot just ignore the fact that a whole bunch of people there are suffering with riots going on and with “not enough” people talking about it.

It’s a bit of a dilemma, I guess, in the sense that the “purpose” of my blog and the “intention” of me as a person are two different things.

My blog is mainly a hobby and is mainly there to promote Indie Games and work through my backlog. I do play games, I do write about it. I end up with a lot of different posts about all kinds of things and it’s generally rather light-hearted and focused around information and potentially even (if you like my posts) entertainment.

And that’s important. When Covid-19 was more of a topic (I mean… it still is), it was a relief of sorts for me personally when I got to read a post that is not about the or a virus. It was lovely to watch a video or a stream where people would just completely ignore everything. At the same time, we even joked about a Zombie apocalypse in my stream when someone brought it up once and it was a lot of fun and people seemed to enjoy that quite a bit as it served as a bit of a “change of pace” of sorts.

Now with my Twitter feed consisting of retweets of police brutality, racism, people that were hurt or killed in the riots and shops getting plundered, I thought I should say something, too.

But while this obviously isn’t the place to start a political discussion, this also is not a place to just ignore everything going on and to just stay quiet about it to not risk any backlash. But… do I have to fear anything like that?

I mean, sure, people could unfollow my blog or my twitter or twitch or whatever but in the end, the question of the day is: Do I care?
And the answer to that would be a definite “no”. As simple as that.

They’re only followers and views and all that and I don’t think I’d like to have people around here that possibly harm people offline.

I’m a left-ish liberal and an equalist, I guess. Politically speaking I am not a communist but I would still consider myself “left”, I guess. And as far as my lib-views and the equalist-part go, I believe in equality and that every person should be treated the same with the same chances in life.

While I know that you cannot “not have a bias” of sorts against people, I’d like to think that we should try our hardest at making a place like that where we are truly equal a reality. Little by little. Day by day. Treat others friendly and accept them no matter their political, religious or other views. No matter their heritage, their appearance, sexuality, gender, sex, their colour of skin, age or their profession. That’s something I’d like to work towards.

People are different and you cannot like every person. I know that. But I feel like it’d be nice if we could work towards a goal like that. I haven’t had any bad experiences with refugees or whatever and hence I don’t think that all refugees are bad. Heck, my parents were refugees. It’d be ironic if I was against them.

Just because there are some bad people, I don’t hate all people. Just because of some cops in the U.S. and in Germany and in other countries, I don’t hate all cops. Even now there are cops walking among the protesters… and even now, even among the cops out there that are doing their cop-stuff, there are people helping old people get away or stopping police brutality.

Right now we just get to see less of that. Right now we only hear about the negative cases… and the victims and the cases where everything is going to shit. Right now we only hear about the bad cases where the press or where the medics get pushed and kicked and pepper-sprayed. Right now we only hear about the cruel jerks that are wearing a uniform out there. But I’m 100% that not all cops are evil. “Heck, even my father was a cop” would be something that I’d say if that war that my parents had to flee from hadn’t had happened. And even if my grandma and other relatives died in that war, I am 100% sure that not all Serbians are bad people.

We only get to hear about the bad ones. We never remember the good ones. We only get to see the bad news, we never hear about the good ones. Don’t judge everyone based on the actions of a few.

And while the “me being an equalist” part may sound as if I’d belong to the “All Lives Matter” camp, I would like to also clarify that I hate it when people use “ALM” instead of “BLM”. If anything, spread #BlackLivesMatter or #BLM on social media and not some stupid “Hey, we white people exist, too”-hashtag. When your neighbours’ house is burning down, you shouldn’t start to water down your own house… or rather the houses that also matter but that aren’t burning right now.

OBVIOUSLY, white people also can suffer from “racism” in a way but it’s not as frequent and not as bad as it is for black people to get shot when someone calls the police to come to those black people’s houses. When you get treated so differently just because of something that you couldn’t decide on at birth.

We can’t decide how we’re born and we can’t decide whether or not we get born at all. We only get to decide how we live our lives and how we treat others.

And I hate the concept of “privilege”, since people will always find something to bring you down, no matter what class you are from. The concept of “privilege” and not being able to talk about racism or discrimination based on your sex, sexuality, gender, colour of skin, heritage or age (aka “straight white old heterosexual male christian thin people”), is absurd since it seems to be just another form of discrimination…

But I guess in this particular instance, even I’d have to say that some people should just sit the fuck down when it comes to their attitude and their whole fucking “All Lives Matter” bullshit. You don’t get shot on sight for being white. You don’t lose a job because of being white. You don’t get framed for crimes for being white. Please think about it logically. Don’t try to stop a fire that doesn’t exist in your house while ignoring the fire in your neighbours’ house.

Only recently a black birdwatcher got accused of “threatening a woman’s life” when he told her to leash up her dog in a park. She called the cops and lied about “an afro-american man threatening her life” in the park. The whole process got filmed by the man. The whole process of her falsely accusing a black man of something that could get him killed if the wrong cops would get there – oh, and all while she’d abuse her dog while being filmed.

I just feel like some people can’t fucking keep quiet about their beliefs or whatever. People that actually talk about the “All Live Matters” hashtag **right now** are just like those “Straight Pride” people, in a way. They have to make everything about themselves. You shouldn’t take pride in being white or straight. Not like that, at least. Not that pride.

(Had to edit the post here as I forgot these last paragraphs initially, despite me taking notes on wanting to mention that very accurate comic about watering down a non-burning house while your neighbour is dying in a fire and the “all lives matter”/”straight pride” people and the Karen that abused her dog while falsely accusing a black man of somthing he never has done and everything. So, sorry for that long edit here.)

And while I know that in the States segregation and all of that has not been “gone” for too long, officially speaking, I don’t personally think that that’s an argument for racism or racial bias or police brutality and flat out murders. I feel like that’s especially a reason why we should do our best to bring people to court for what they do, even if they’re policemen.

Germany has had its past and while I personally have nothing to do with that, I still feel like we have to always remember the past and hold it dear so nothing like that ever happens again. It’s only been 75 years after all. Same goes for other countries in Europe and other places in the world, of course. There seems to be a rise of “suspicious” parties in the world and while, of course, you can’t just forbid every political party in the world, I don’t think that you should tolerate any intolerance.

My views on a certain president are probably rather obvious as well and it’s not due to “the media telling me that he’s bad” but rather due to the bigotry and hypocrisy in calling out other people for “fake news” but being against Twitter labelling actual fake news as… well… fake news.

In German, there’s a term called “Lügenpresse” which is basically Nazi-jargon and which means “fake news” or “lying media”/”lying press”. It gets used in the same way to shut up everyone who is against one.

If you tolerate intolerance, after all, the tolerant people will be the ones that end up not getting tolerated. The political extremes are, in essence, extremes that just fight each other to the death and screw everyone in between over… and if we tolerate bigotry, we’ll end up as the ones that are not tolerated.

We’ll be the ones that get pushed into a corner and eventually, we’ll be the ones that suffer as the racists and sexists and supremacists start rising again. If you tolerate the intolerant, you’ll be the ones that suffer.

And, well,… extremism. I’m against it. Obviously. Every form of fanatism and extremism is bad in my opinion. No matter if it’s left or right, liberal or authoritarian (or whatever the counterpart to liberal is). It’s bad.

While a lot of the cases of politically motivated cases of violence in Germany are committed by the far-right, I’d never say that the far-left is any less bad. I feel like it shouldn’t matter who you are or what you stand for in those cases. Crimes are crimes.

So the people out there that are peacefully protesting against everything that is going on right now… those people are heroes in a way. They are doing it the right way, peacefully, even when their lives can be at risk right now for it. “Just stay safe, please” is what I’m trying to think but I guess that’s easy to say when you’re on a whole fucking other continent. I’m sorry if I sound like an idiot in this post. It’s easy for me to write this when I’m basically on the other side of the planet, I guess.

The people that are plundering stores and that are hurting others. The people that are throwing rocks and that are cursing ALL the others. The people that are destroying so much that so many people have built together. Those people suck. The violent ones who are violent for the sake of being violent. Crimes are crimes. Be it violent policeman or violent protesters.

And of course, I have a lot of other thoughts on politics and social norms and we can surely have a discussion on those as well but generally speaking, I’d like my blog to be relatively neutral when it comes to politics… but I also don’t want it to be a platform for any forms of “-ists” or “-phobes”.

A while ago, I was torn up about reviewing a certain game which was or still is great… but I don’t think that I should support its devs. And not all of the devs are like that but the lead dev and her girlfriend are trans-exclusionary radical feminists or transphobes that have secret discord channels and stuff where they’d make fun of and bully trans-women in their community, pretty badly.

And honestly, nowadays, I still am torn up about it but I don’t think it’s worth the headache when it comes to this topic… and I don’t think it’s good to provide any coverage for a game when it’s going to directly support someone who hates trans-people so much that it hurts. I don’t think I’d like to support the intolerant like that and end up hurting those that I am an ally of.

So, if you’re a racist, a sexist, a whatever-ist or if you’re against the LGBTQIA+ community or certain people of colour or that kind of stuff, please fuck off.

And I don’t mean that in a “you can’t have your own thoughts or ideas or opinions” kind of way but rather in a “don’t talk about it and we’re fine since I won’t know about it” kind of way.

If you feel the urge to be very open about opinions, ideas and positions that harm other people… fuck off.

“Die Gedanken sind frei”, the thoughts are free. You can’t be judged for what you think in secret. If you think that all X have to die, then that’s obviously bad… but if you think that and don’t tell anyone, nobody is going to know… and obviously, nobody can judge you for it.

I have friends that are politically speaking on the other side of the spectrum than me… but they are not “too” far on the other side, I’d say. They are not far-right and they are not racist or whatever. They just do not agree with me in the same way as I do. But as long as they don’t commit crimes, it’s fine, right? As long as you don’t harm others or insult them or harass them or whatever, it’s fine to have your own thoughts and opinions.

And by voicing these thoughts and opinions, of course, I could become a target of sorts, too, but I really doubt that that will happen. Of course, people could unfollow me on Twitter or Twitch or WordPress but I doubt that I’d be bothered by that if it’s really just the racists, sexists, and other forms of -ists and -phobes that are leaving.

I probably won’t talk about politics too much on this blog but generally speaking, I’d like this to be a “safe space” of sorts where people come and read my posts and have a fun time. If you have any thoughts on the matter you can voice it in the comment section. I personally feel like having my opinions and my stances on things out there, like this, is going to be helpful in a way. I think it’s going to be important to be transparent like that. And while I’d like to create more posts on games and upcoming releases and everything to entertain and distract from everything that is going on right now… I also don’t want to just ignore everything that is going on in the world.

I don’t think that we need to watch how all the content creators out there are behaving themselves and how they are treating the situation. I don’t think everyone must display their views if they don’t want to and I don’t think it’s okay to judge people for not speaking up about it…

I do not think it’s all that necessary of me to write this post, in a way, but at the same time, I don’t think it’s bad. If anything, it’s better this way. I’ve been struggling for the past couple of days with putting my thoughts into words and with “writing a tweet on the matter”… I felt as if I’d have to write something on the matter and as if I’d have to do something about it to be there for others as I’m helpless in other ways and as I can’t help at all regarding actual ways of helping. I read about people judging others for not using some hashtag or whatever… and I don’t think that’s necessarily good. I don’t think it’s good to judge others for not hopping onto a bandwagon and I don’t think it’s good to only voice your opinion because others pressured you into that.

I feel like a few words of love or support would be a small way of helping but I am not good at all with words… and hence I’ve been struggling. I’ve been frustrated in a way. I ended up just tweeting “all the love to you out there” or something like that but I don’t think that that’s going to help. I’m not sure if that was the right thing to do but it certainly isn’t the time for “perfect tweets” or some stupid “campaigns” or movements or whatever.

That may be a bit contradictory in a way but I wanted to write this post despite it being unnecessary. If this is a non-political kind of place, we don’t need to know about my political views… and if I want to promote Indie Games, I shouldn’t tell certain people to “fuck off”, especially as they may want to buy some Indie Games that I’ve reviewed… right?

Hence, in a way, it doesn’t make sense for me to tell you all of this but I really wanted to get it off my chest and talk about it. If you ever feel like talking or if you need someone to vent to, my Twitter DMs are open (I think?) and you may message me on Discord at MagiWasTaken#4357.

Thanks for reading so far! I hope that this post didn’t bore or disturb anyone in any way. I just felt like it. Maybe I should create a second blog just for my political opinions on matters that don’t affect me… but then again, this post is so long that I got all kinds of politics covered for the next few years, I think… so that shouldn’t be too mandatory.

Have a nice day.

TSS #62 – On the Lookout!

The last Stray Sheep has been half a month ago already so I thought I’d post something in that section already. This time around, we’re talking about categories!

Currently, I’m doing mostly reviews (Indietail) since I originally wanted to do exactly that, review titles in my library and work through my backlog. The Gaming Journey also helps with that as I get to stream games and post about it (MHW, D2, etc.) that aren’t exactly “Indie” Games. So, overall, I really am enjoying that. And “everything else” is the Stray Sheep, I guess?

Well, I was planning for a while now to start up a category with informational pieces about upcoming games, new releases and promotions as well as new games that I’m excited about or that I’ve newly discovered or added into my pile of games to play. I really am looking forward to that as I’d also add the past interviews with Devs into that section and as I’d also talk about stuff like Witchmarsh, which I’ve been backing for a while now on Kickstarter!

Informational pieces would be mostly about “hype” or things that look interesting without the evaluation of potential repetitiveness or design flaws or whatever else I’d say about it. Of course, I may talk about those, too, but generally, I’d love to keep it less review-ish and actually only talk about why I personally am excited about those games and why it looks so interesting to me. I also could post my Revisited-series in there and move some of those posts to that category since they’d go hand-in-hand with the reviews, I guess?

Updates, press releases, new information, new discoveries, interviews – “On the Lookout” or “The Watch Tower” or whatever I can come up with will be the category for it! I personally am quite fond of “On the Lookout” but I’m a bit worried that it may be too obvious or too concrete in a way… it’s not like “Indietail”.

Currently thinking about using something like this as a “Logo” of sorts. Maybe with a tagline?

I even have a few games in mind to post about in that sense. I’m looking forward to it!

Before I set everything up, though, and before any of those drafts can be finished and posted, I’d have to come up with a fitting name for it and hence, I gotta find something that “sticks” or that is “easy to remember” or “fitting for my ‘brand'”. I personally am not really too coherent with it just yet, although I may redesign my blog soon…

Edit: The newly created category is called “The Lookout Post” with some puns and all of that in there…

I hope you enjoyed this quick little post on categories and upcoming WIPs!

Stay safe!

Cheers!